19th of 19th! =D

19th of 19th. Cool...19th bday on the 19th. Rockin....Anyway, just for some minor updates. And probably a major one as well. Lol...Check it out..














~My Bday Organizers =D~
~Anybody guess where's it? Its NeWay!~














~Posing with the bill... T_T these bad ppl pay all.. feel so guilty T_T











~Them....Again....














~The main singers of the night.
~U muz be guessing, WHERE AM I? XD














~There we go. Yours truly~~~~

Well, din really take much pictures tho. I just realized. I DIN TAKE PICS WITH Jinli and sis. Lol....Crap man me. T_T Hahaha....Guys dun get jealous. A thorn amongst the roses XD....hahahaha....

Anyway, behold ~~~ my bday gift.....














~Thanks abby!!~ XD
~I kinda gobbled it down before taking the pic. Hahahaha...It looks so retarded now. sobs~~~

Well, just wanna thank the 3 gorgeous ladies; Jinli, Yili, and of course, Abby. You guys really made my day so so so so memorable. The bday song that you guys sing could practically hit the 5-minute mark. Hahahahaha. Really enjoyed like never before. Coz its the 1st bday celebration ever held by others for me. And i really really appreciate it. From the deepest depths of my heart.

And also, thanks to my parents. Who took the initiative to bring me to a hotel dinner. The food was nice but couldn't eat much tho. Hahahahaha. And not forgetting those who wished me, thanks for the wishes, and esp for remembering my day.

Actually, got somemore pics wan...but...i dun have dem with me. lolx will upload/update it sooner.

Life - Past, Present, Future.

Well, good news i'm outta my depression and remorse and regrets on my "nice" and colourful exam results. Well you can't call it colourful as there's only 1 colour. Which is....red. Lol...Anyway, thanks to my friends, and parents, i've been thinking alot. Even while playing, chatting, listening to music, my brain juz keeps thinking, what is there for me to come? in the future???

Today at church i went 1st service and also youth. Man, was i amazed. Both services, struck me to the core. 1st was about healing of body, mind, soul and spirit. That's how i interpret it. And guess what, my sorethroat and my sinus/sighness/nose problem, is kinda....gone just like that. And was i glad.

Then in youth, i thought, ALAH, another combine cg, sure bored to death. But hor, i hear the Indo pastor preach, about "Faithfulness and Loyalty". It hit me STRAIGHT TO THE CORE AGAIN!!!! This time even harder. You gotta be faithful to God and loyal to Him in both good times and also in bad times. And in bad times, the more you are faithful and loyal to Him, the more strong you will be in Christ himself. And not only that, i learned, when bad times comes, it is the time to grow. Exactly like my favourite verse, James 1 : 2-6, trials and circumstances are there so that you may be more mature, and you'll grow stronger in life.

Not only that, in life, when bad things befall upon you, WE, CAN DECIDE. What are we to do? Sit back and whine like a baby? Or move ur ass and do something about the problem and make it solvable? Yes, it hit me. When i got what i got, i cried, whined, went into post-depression, locked away myself for awhile, 1day only tho, and being an emo-king for awhile. Until it was bestowed upon me. Whatever that happens whether good or bad are of divine purpose to all that love Him. The verse itself goes something like that tho. Dun rmbr all haha...

And i keep thinking, about my future....what would it be like? Yes, many people say the future is the future, and "do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow wil worry about itself"....Count on God and he will make your paths straight. I don't know what the future holds, its so vague, so distorted, so unclear. Well, to be straight as guys and girls, we do have our loved ones and usually its not blood-related. And well, after hearing the heart's desire, how could i not refuse? But in order to accomplish it....Money is needed.

Look, i'm not being materialistic or am i being mega-ambitious. I just hope that the best will come out from all that i'm going through. The thing is, i wanna go, tour the world with her....LoL. such mega-ambitions THO.

Well, to all reading, please please please pray for me. Pray for wisdom and courage and understanding and the ability and mindset and priorities to be set straight and right. I need all prayers. Let this battle be on my side. And may i end this battle with glory, with honour and with perserverence.

FOR GLORY!!!!!!!!

Fail ------> Success?

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post....edited~

editing post....~10%
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Perception of failure, changed.
Harddisk replaced.
Database reformatted.
New programs available.

Newly installed software :
1) No point crying over spilt milk. (Game Application)
2) Do your best and let God do the rest. (Notepad Application)
3) Failure is key to success. (Media player)
4) The loser is the one who gives up and the winner is the one who never gives in. (Internet Explorer)

~Total cost of program reformatting = RM 0.00
~Sponsored by = God
~Release date = 11 July 07

~Special thanks to : Abigail, Erica, Tham, Charis, Joyce, Andrew, and others.

P.S ~ pretty lame tho. hahahaha.

Life, a journey, an expedition?

Life life life. I dono what am i doing with my life now seriously. No job, no work, no income, no things to do. Its like i'm turning into a bloody pig that just eats, sleeps and shit. Haiz. What's happening to me? What am i turning into? Every morning, i wake up, i keep looking at the ceiling, and i ask, "what am i supposed to do today...?"

And the answer, is nothing. Great rite? I'm not happy. With everything that's going on. I try to put a good face, try to be happy, but i'm hurting inside...Everyday, the surface of my heart keeps bleeding and bleeding. Why must i go through all this? A process of learning? Or what? I've tried to look at the good side, but yet i can't see anything. I just so so so so so feel like giving up. Giving up everything.

"Life is an art that is done without using an eraser."

Nice line, but it sucks. You can't re-do what u've done. No "backspace" button, neither do u have the Ctrl+C and Ctrl+V button. Which is, "copy and paste" function. Its like typing a letter using those old typewriters....And u only have a sheet of paper. Once wrong, gone. The paper is then defiled, with sin, with wrongdoings, with remorse, and regret. So when u "type" on the paper, "type" it right, dun get it wrong, coz u can't undo it. No Ctrl+Z function too.

Haiz....Probably at times, the title and its content clashes rite. Lolx.
Anyway.........

Wanna know what situation i'm in right now?
~~I'm a footballer. I play for MU. Everybody LOVES MU doesn't it? Ok not everybody but quite alot of people. Yes, playing for MU is fun. Not only does it earn you glory, it also gives you privileges from the team itself. One day, i fail to score a goal against Malaysia's team. And the coach got me kicked out from the team. And there i was, out of the team, with nothing, but memories of the team.

After awhile, when MU was against Malaysia again, the coach realized, last time it wasn't my fault. It was the team's fault that i couldn't score the goal. And MU team asked me back to their team. I agreed, giving the fact that i thought i could make it in the team again. But, before MU re-invited me, i had good contact with the team in Germany. And i know, i CAN enter Germany, if i try hard enough. And Germany's team is so much ever-willing to accept me, despite my flaws in the goal against Malaysia and the kick-out-of-team-situation by MU.

So now, i'm in a bloody dilemma. Should i stay in the MU team? Or shud i go join Germany, which could be a whole new world for me...Germany is new, MU is old. Germany is a team of mysteries, MU is a team of memories. So what, do i do....~

Honestly at times i wud just go like WTF. PArdon me but yes, i'm really...on the verge of exploding. I dun understand. Why did God put me in this, or did i go into this myself? I want out, but yet i want in. I believe many people also have dilemmas. Everyday dilemmas. Just like driving, take highway or subway? Highway nid toll, subway got jam. It sucks....

James 1 : 2-6 says
~~[2]Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, [3]because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. [4]Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
[5]If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
[6]But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.~~~

I try to abide this verse. This is one of my favorite verses, which is the verse God gave me when MU asked me out of their team. Probably i'm going thru this shit....To learn? To decide? To be a better man? To be a better person? I don't know....I just hope, this expedition of mine....would be a good one.

P.S = Nearly all of the above, are expressions for things that aren't what it seems. If any of u can decipher it, Good. U can read my thoughts. If u can't, sorry lo. XD

Depth of My Heart

Hi there bloggie once again. Been awhile since i tickled u with my 'banging' of my keyboard. Well, i just have no idea on what the crap to write. Just that, my mind, keeps running nonstop. I don't understand what's happening to me. What's happening in my life, in my studies, in my relationships, in my finance, in my employability.

Studies...To hell be with it, i have nothing to study, nothing to memorize, nothing to do. So darn boring. I just pray i'll pass my exams. Just pass will do. I dun ask for an A, or B, or C....just give me a pass and i'll be happy enough.

Life....So, what the hell am i doing with life? STUpiD stuffs? I wake up 9-11am in the morning, stare at my ceiling, and ask myself this stupid question again and again...."What the hell am i supposed to do today?" U guys love holidays rite? Honestly, it sucks, its boring, its lonely. AND ITS DRIVING ME UP THE WALL!!!

Relationships....Just in general ok. So far, nothing's going on. And somethings got me thinking, do u prefer a pretty girl, a cute girl, a smart girl, a stupid girl, a rich girl, a sweet girl, an ordinary girl, a down-to-earth girl, etc. Thinking and thinking, i rather have a sweet girl, rather than a pretty one, a poor one (expections are lower, and dey dun care abt petty stuff). I know its stupid but well, that's what i want. Why, u may wonder, i think about all this 'crap'? My stupid friend lo, ask me this stupid question. Throw me question somemore, "What does it mean by falling out of love?" Lol....i really dono how answer man....
HAiz.....Relationships aren't always bliss....neither is it always on the rocks. I just want a girl, which is just all rounded, and doesn't keep nagging.
P.S : i know alot girls love to nag. lolx....

Finance....I'm BANKRUPT! ~end of story~ whoever wanna ask me out, aka date me, guy or girl, please pay for food, and petrol money. LOLX.....

Employability....Shud i go Telco? Or got to other stuffs? I prefer telco tho....but how?? My dad sent my CV to his fren dy but no reply yet....haiz...pray ba i get a job...at least i won't be so bored, and i won't be bankrupt. rite rite??? Those that want me out, pray for me laaa....looooool.

Anyway, just wanna take the chance, to apologize to those that I've hurt, directly, indirectly, knowingly, and unknowingly. And well, another post up, another one coming.

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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Thanks for reading.
Signing off, Josaiya.

Weird Emotions.

Hmmm...Its pretty weird these days. Now i got 4months break, i ought to be happy! But weird. I dun feel happy. I feel sad. Its so lonely being at home. So boring, nothing to do....All i do is Eat, Sleep, Pee, Shit, Play. And nothing more. I miss my friends, i miss my college. Though i hate to study, but yea....i've to admit i miss college. Its just the 2nd week of my hols. WTH. crap....how to endure another...14weeks? T_T TORTURE....

Anyway, today, was weird. I woke up due to several 'reasons' which i won't tell LOL. Dono la...weird la....The atmosphere oso so.....so tempting for me to go for a swim. But nobody la...YER GERAM LAR!!!! WHY I HOLIDAY WHEN EVERYBODY GOT NO HOLIDAY....RAWR!!!! SO SIAN!!! Grrr....I'm just bored bored bored bored bored bored bored!!!! SOMEONE HELP ME!!!! lol...Anybody part time job? That of course...pays well too. xD

Corrupted Food, Unsatisfaction and a Joke.

Hahahaha....Food. Everybody eat food de hor. The only difference is that whether u're satisfied with that food or not. And also, here is to show what happens, if you play with your food. XD


----> At McD

( McD IceCream, Dipped with Chili Sauce. Yummy... xD )

This was went me and my frens went to McD to study. The 'smart' counter fella was cramming everything into my tray. Smart seh. And when i went up the stairs, it toppled. Hahaha...In the end, the icecream ended up being our 'toy' for like 30mins? Lolx.


-----> At BlackCanyon restaurant

Man, i just 'love' this restaurant. This place hor, at Centerpoint hor, IF u have NO PATIENCE, i suggest u not to go. Basket seh. I ordered "Wa Tan Hor" and u wanna see the portion they give me? SO "BIG" MAN....Check it.


( The Red Circle is the portion i got )

Of course, i sure angry la. RM 10 seh. For that? Joker....Go complain lor. Complain to WAITER A, he blur blur, dun understand English. Bengang aku. Call WAITER B, also dun understand English. Wat the hell....Starting to fume dy. Angry lor, call Manager come. MANAGER ALSO DUN UNDERSTAND ENGLISH!!!! ROAR!!!! i think, my little 7yr old sister understand more English. XD

I shoot shoot shoot....then dey gimme new portion. xD
My friend infront me shake head hahahaha....And Gosh, i really prayed for the sanctification of the FOOD....HAHAHAHAHAHA....


( The Portion after complaining. XD VICTORY~~~~~!!! lolx )

A little Conversation post.....

Me : Hey waiter, RM10, like that only?
Waiter A : Yes sir, lidat oni.
Me : U eat can full meh?
Waiter A : Har?
Me : I ask u, u eat like this, can full ah?
Waiter A : Kenot.
Me : Yalor, where can full. So little. Can add more ah?
Waiter A : Wait i call people....
Me : Ok.
Waiter B : Sir anything sir?
Me : RM10, like that only?
Waiter B : Yes sir, lidat oni.
Me : U eat can full meh?
Waiter B : Kenot sir.
Me : YALOR. CANNOT FULL. SO EXPENSIVE. U OK? (bengang dy.)
Waiter B : Yes sir but is lidat oni.
Me : CALL UR MANAGER Here.
Waiter B : Err...ok sir.
~~~~The manager is lady. Waiter A and Waiter B are guys.
Manager : Sir anything?
Me : This food, like that only? RM 10? Like that only? I come last time bigger leh.
Manager : Yes sir lidat oni.
Me : I ask u, u eat this, CAN FULL AH?
Manager : Yes sir, I eat, can full.
Me : ...........................
Manager : Nvm sir, i go giv u more sir.
Me : Haiz. Ok. Tks.

I so damn zhatou with that manager....ZZzzzZZzz.....