Well, good news i'm outta my depression and remorse and regrets on my "nice" and colourful exam results. Well you can't call it colourful as there's only 1 colour. Which is....red. Lol...Anyway, thanks to my friends, and parents, i've been thinking alot. Even while playing, chatting, listening to music, my brain juz keeps thinking, what is there for me to come? in the future???
Today at church i went 1st service and also youth. Man, was i amazed. Both services, struck me to the core. 1st was about healing of body, mind, soul and spirit. That's how i interpret it. And guess what, my sorethroat and my sinus/sighness/nose problem, is kinda....gone just like that. And was i glad.
Then in youth, i thought, ALAH, another combine cg, sure bored to death. But hor, i hear the Indo pastor preach, about "Faithfulness and Loyalty". It hit me STRAIGHT TO THE CORE AGAIN!!!! This time even harder. You gotta be faithful to God and loyal to Him in both good times and also in bad times. And in bad times, the more you are faithful and loyal to Him, the more strong you will be in Christ himself. And not only that, i learned, when bad times comes, it is the time to grow. Exactly like my favourite verse, James 1 : 2-6, trials and circumstances are there so that you may be more mature, and you'll grow stronger in life.
Not only that, in life, when bad things befall upon you, WE, CAN DECIDE. What are we to do? Sit back and whine like a baby? Or move ur ass and do something about the problem and make it solvable? Yes, it hit me. When i got what i got, i cried, whined, went into post-depression, locked away myself for awhile, 1day only tho, and being an emo-king for awhile. Until it was bestowed upon me. Whatever that happens whether good or bad are of divine purpose to all that love Him. The verse itself goes something like that tho. Dun rmbr all haha...
And i keep thinking, about my future....what would it be like? Yes, many people say the future is the future, and "do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow wil worry about itself"....Count on God and he will make your paths straight. I don't know what the future holds, its so vague, so distorted, so unclear. Well, to be straight as guys and girls, we do have our loved ones and usually its not blood-related. And well, after hearing the heart's desire, how could i not refuse? But in order to accomplish it....Money is needed.
Look, i'm not being materialistic or am i being mega-ambitious. I just hope that the best will come out from all that i'm going through. The thing is, i wanna go, tour the world with her....LoL. such mega-ambitions THO.
Well, to all reading, please please please pray for me. Pray for wisdom and courage and understanding and the ability and mindset and priorities to be set straight and right. I need all prayers. Let this battle be on my side. And may i end this battle with glory, with honour and with perserverence.
FOR GLORY!!!!!!!!
