Expectations?

Well, today CG we just talked about Love. Last week was? ....er...dating if i nt mistaken. Well, as usual, we had each a turn to share what was LOVE in our hearts. As in our opinion on what love is all about.

Well, so far we categorized love into about 3 parts. They are "Friends Love", "Parental Love", and "Godly Love". Well since everybody had their own set of answers, i'll probably just list down the few that really....made me think quite alot. hahahaha....

What is love? To me, when i was younger, love was like....a taboo? its like when a guy gets close to a girl den people will start saying, "Woooo U love that girl...", those type of childish stuff and all which i believe we all go thru it. Love when i was younger....was like....i 'owned' somebody. as in she/he 'belongs' to me. Get my idea? Lolz....and then you can go and showoff and all; that u 'own' someone. Hahahaha pretty childish thoughts eh?

Well, as i grow, i tend to realize that love is more about sacrifice, time, care, and the ability to see people's strengths pass their weakness. As in see their good rather than their flaws. In relationships, now, i believe, when 2 people are into a relationship, i believe the most important thing is the ability to sacrifice and spend time together no matter what the consequences is. Well, at least that is what i expect now if i ever have a girl. U don't want the girl you be with always busy, always not around and all. The only time u get to talk to him or her is via sms. This is like..."Hey i'm getting into a relationship with my handphone???" Lolz....

Well parental love and godly love is more....hmmm...more meaningful i would say. Parents are always there to give u care, love, trust, hope, and they fulfill ur daily needs....NEEDS, not wants. Godly love is...is John 3:16. Read urself. hahahha....Or 1 Corinthians 13.

Well, in general, the word 'love' itself is too big to comprehend. Just cut it off to the small and more common pieces, and leave the rest to itself....
Why is love so complicated anyway? Lolz.

E.T.D.D.F

E.T.D.D.F? Exams, Trials, Dilemmas, Distraction, Frustration.

Haiz....exam exam exam, next tuesday exam and yet what am i doing? i can't study...i can't concentrate. I'm trying but yet my mind seems to wander. Why? why do i always feel tired? geees...seriously this is one of the worst times of my life....Ever cried before juz coz of the stress of an exam? Well, honestly speaking, this is the 1st time i ever cried for an exam. What a crybaby eh? T_T sad case for me....

Dilemmas dilemmas dilemmas. Everyday oso choose choose choose. Either this, or that. Why muz choose? So many things to do, so many problems to solve, so many things to accomplish. I'm having the worst nightmare of my life. Guess what? These problems are driving me crazy....I once dreamt....Recently lar....S.A.T.A.N came to me in my dream....he tried to scare me, tried to freak me out, tried to weaken me....I was paralyzed. Its a dream but it all seem too real....Its just too real...

These things are draining all my energy, all my liveliness. i dono lar i juz hope this ends quick....i dowanna choose anything if its possible but yet i know its not. God please help...i'm starting to have weird nightmares and all and i can't slp always. I dono why but to me the only way for me to release these stresses of mine is via my stupid blog. A blog which i try many times to type and update but it always fail i don't know why.

So frustrated as well...college life...people say honeymoon life hor? MY FOOT LAR! honeymoon KONON. BABI LA ISH i SUPER ANGRY WITH COLLEGE LIFE! gargh! assignments assignments assignments, exam exam exam, class class class....i don't even have time to live a life man! GARGH! i just feel like ramming into the wall....damn. another year...to go? can i stand it? can i pass thru it? can i withstand the tremendous stress? can i?

Well.....all i can do is hope....Just hope things pass by fast. T_T
i'm beginning to have a serious critical breakdown.....can't stand it no more.... T_T
every night i cry before i sleep....

P.S : yeah i know...crybaby again...haiz.