The End of 2009~

Well, finally 2009 has cometh to an end. in exactly 14hours, a brand new year will come.

Many things happened this year, good, bad, not so good, and not so bad.... haha.... Many things to thank God for, which most importantly i thank God for being so handsome. Lol~! No laaa.....Most importantly is thank God that i'm still alive~ ^^

Thank God for my results.... Its contradictory to thank God for such 'wonderful' results, but still, i believe there's a purpose.... Hehehe.....

Thank God for my family and friends.... Without them, i guess life won't be as colourful as it is....

Thank God for my parents esp, coz without them, who am i? =)

Thank God for Form5 CG~ Though i believe not many will read, but yeah, u guys rock~ ^^

Thank God for Abby.... Truly, life is different with her~ ^^

Most of all, thank God for God! =)

Life won't be the same again...... She ain't coming back so often anymore~ Habis what'll happen to ME?! T_T yerrrrr.....so terrible leh.... =(

Blahhhh i also duno liau wat to write~ wanna go make another hole in my cupboard wakakakakkakaa~

I only know one thing at least, treasure ur loved ones, before they are gone. For when they are gone, its hard to get them back. ^^

And, as the new year comes, i pray that i can advance to my career of His choice. A career that will be interesting and fun for me, so that i won't realize that time is passing..... this, i pray.

With all of these in mind, i'll let the 14hours pass me by, and i'll say goodbye to year 2009~~~ And all that has happeneth, shall be in memory....

~ Death leaves a memory, no one can heal. Love leaves a memory, no one can steal~

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what's there to put for titles? need to think for a bombardic word? waste time~~~~~

Haizzz......Today's Christmas. Its supposed to be a happy day~ A day of fun, joy and laughter. A day without tears. A day without arguments. A day without problems. A day without fear, lost-ness, and a day of celebration. But what do I have?????

Whyyyy......Why must the 'voice' tell me again that today will be a day of arguments?! A day of problems!? A day of 'emo-ness' of others?!

Great. 10mins after i got the 'voice'.....Arguments occured. I nearly lost my left ear.

What's next? An insolent fool driving a big fat car nearly hit me? And din even bother to say sorry and act like nothing happen? Such pathetic people. I really pity those big cars for such a lousy driver. Now i know, i seriously know..... Those people with BIG NEW CARS.... ARE PATHETIC DRIVERS!!!! Sorry to those big new car owners who i know, but i'm serious....why buy a big new car? Unless u're NOOB in driving that u need EXTRA Protection?! Seriously i pity them......

I really really REALLY HATE NOOBS ON THE ROAD.....they DO NOT deserve to DRIVE. I'm serious about this. How many people actually REALLY REALLY knows driving? Besides the F1 people? I'm not saying that i'm a pro either, just not a noob.

What next? I've proven myself to be a person of virtue at least, to be a person whom one can trust, and people still do not believe me?! I feel really sad. Really....

Honestly i want to run away.... Run away from all these problems.... Run away from all these troubles.... Run away..... For good.

But how? What???

The Bible says.... Come to me all ye who are weary and I shall give you rest.

Yes, i do trust in Jesus. I believe He's the one true God. The Alpha and the Omega. Beginning and the End. Saviour and Redeemer of Man. One and Only way to Heaven. He whom dieth for us on the Cross for the sins of mankind. He who gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believeth in Him shalt not perish but have eternal life....

YES I DO BELIEVE IN IT!!!!

But......i'm still man.....

How long can i bear with it? How long can i keep it inside? How long more????

I never knew Christmas would be so......eye-watering?

I gave everything....to gaineth nothing. I'm not expecting, just never knew, that life would be THIS BAD.....

Well guess its what the folks say. Bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people.

God knows what i've done.....gonna cry it all out now~~~~

so lonely.....so alone.....so quiet......all i hear is the fan~~

P.S : Yeah~ Another hole on my cupboard. Crap~~~~ Hope i dun destroy it~ T_T

Newlyweds~ Eiii Newly-DATES!!!! Lol.....

Hola~! Lols.....Updates updates updates! Selling colourful pink dresses and also some cotton candies!!! Rm50 per piece! Limited edition!!! Grab before its all gone!

Aik......Oh ya this personal blog~ XP i tot i'm dr.josaiya.blogspot.com..... muahahahaha! lmao~

Anyway, updates~ Yeah.... So what have we here in Dec? Or Nov-Dec?

Nothing much new....Just that the most retarded thing is that i'm living on my October wages~ and December's gonna end~ Crap~

Just came back from APYAC 09, and yea, i have to admit its pretty.....interesting and cool yet at times, boring. Especially during the breaks~ Blah~~ 4hour break gilaaaa~ Everyday sleeping at 1am-2am and waking up at about 6-7am~ Madness....

Main point is, the best part i've learned in APYAC09 is that.....i have a gift! XP heh heh....i'm not gonna share tho muahahhahhaa~ but its confirmed by Pastor Mike Capati~ oops Pilavachy? or Pilavachi~ whatever la we'll stick to Pas.Mike~ ^^

And my golly, Pastor Vic's talk was bombardialy amazzinG~ He assured me the true meaning of love. "Love is giving EVERYTHING at the expense of one own self." In other terms, like i like to put it, Love is Sacrifice. ^^

Well, fast forwarding time a little.....or reversing.... lupa~ Abby went on 4 flights, leaving me.....bored, bored, and bored. Hahahahaha.....

14th Dec 09, our 47th mth anni~~~ Simple Met Sweet~ (SMS) lols~!

Fast forwarding a little more~ Eternity Muscial by Charis Christian Centre! Tried to called a few of my pals to go but guess they couldn't make it due to some technical difficulties and also....their laziness to come all the way from PJ~ Understandable tho~

Now for the freakiest part~~ Gah~ Youth carolling is this Thursday~ which means precisely another 72 hours! So now i dono lar.....I never played publicly before, just only in youth events~ Now is PUBLIC~~~ Lols......it makes me shiver~

Coz now hor, playing in Youth during practice is still acceptable cause i kinda like know everybody there..... so if i play salah, i can be 'thick face' abit.....lol but on the real day.... if play salah = habis! lols..... gggrrrr hope on the day i don get trembling legs and a super fast heartbeat..... later i become butter-fingers den mampus!!! T_T

(To you all carollers! Pray for it!!! - especially pray for the musicians! harharhar!)

Job-wise....i duno lar~ Trying to opt for event management but i'm kinda.....procrastinating~~ Lols......Wait till she goes back 1st ba den only i'll decide on JOBS~

Well, lets help my brother promo abit ya~ There'll be a Post-Christmasy event by the Youth in CCC on 27th Dec 09!!! Details are as below~

Date : 27/12/09

Time : 7pm-10,30pm

P/S : Bring rm5 gift for gift exchange quest~ lol....

And LASTLY.....talking abt jobs in event management, i'm currently trying to plan F5 CG camp with the leaders~~ But so last min....can plan ka? All keep this in prayer ya? Hahahahah invitation to the cg members sudah keluar~~ So hope can make this 'camp' luuuu XP

Okkkkay~ this post doesn't seem good

(i said crap coz i'm running low on finance~rofl~)

My New Life~~

Yeah yeah~~ what am i gonna post here? really?? nothing new.....everyday is just working and working and working~~

And lets be frank, i'm bored with my job~ in the sense that its the same old thing again and again and again~~ i want a job....that requires me to think~~~ and think~~~ and think~~~ lols....

And also a job that ain't THAT hectic in the sense that i have to work on saturdays~ blehhh~ no life larrrr......

Other updates are such as..... oh ya, i'm the pianist for the carolling team this year~ And honestly, its really really spooky? lols.....spooky not in the sense of horror genre but more in the sense of.....anxiety and fear? fear in the sense of......mistakes~ lols~~ i mean, COME MON~~ its my 1st public playing.... besides church and HUGE~ Did i play for APYAC before?? O.o dun rmbr tho~

Anyway.... yeah, talking about apyac~ Hey people APYAC's coming!!!!! signup liao ma?! Better signup oh~~ forgot the dates but its somewhere in december..... i would guess abt the 1x-th of december? means from 10-19th december lols....somewhere in between, its just 3 days folks~ ^^ i'm going so remember say hi to me!! =) *** When u c me there, that is =_+"

Well, what else should i say? Hmmm......well, currently i dono where i'm heading in life tho~ Just looking forward to 3 years time~~~ Not for 2012 tho~ 2012 is.....a fact that i DO NOT believe in~ YEp, the world will end soon, but i somehow......have this feeling that 2012 will not be D-Day..... Apocalypse and judgement of men will not come on 2012.... that is what i feel~ anyway.....i'm looking forward to something that'll happen in 2012~ DEFINITELY will happen.....if....nothing bad happens ^^

---(crossing my fingers here dear ^^)

So....guess that's all folks?

P.S : i miss eu..................... T_T

Wading in the Burning Flames of Hell

" 1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

²He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

³He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

⁴Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

⁵You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

⁶Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever. " (Psalm 23:1-6)

-- This Psalm above is just so so...soothing? I somehow like this psalm a lot...Weirdly~ Cause it probably gives me a sense of....security from God? ^^ The feeling that God is always weith me, and will always protect me, and shall never leave me in the presence of my 'enemy'. A feeling....none other can giveth~

Be prepared for a LONG LONG post~~~~

Well, i believe you peeps heard of me being admitted to the hospital right? But i believe, only a handful of you all knows the reason to why i'm being admitted to the ospital out of a sudden. So, i'm gonna talk about it here....

The italics is add-ons. The normal fonts is the story. The yellows are Scriptures.

*(whatever that is stated below is 101% true, and it happened. If you do not believe....i'm sorry. ^^)

In the Bible, God gave us many many many many promises.... Promises that we can claim from God himself. One of the promises that i ALWAYS hold on is the promise that goes.....

"Ask and ye shall receive, seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you.

Matthew 7:7"

This promise is very very very true~ a very promising promise, to the point that it always comes true....at least for me. Thank God. Whatever you may read later on may be bizarre, or a myth, or an exaggeration from me, but mark my words, the 'unseeable' realm....is scary~

Story starts :

These days, i've been reading alot about people being brought to Hell by God. When i read about this horrific horror and terror that lurks in the depths of Hell, i asked God....

"Why them? Why not me? Is Hell that terrible? Surely i couldn't be THAT terrible right? Its unfair! I want to experience Hell! Let me TRY Hell......."

Well, obviously my wish wasn't His command, YET. However, after many many days, nearly weeks of asking, He finally....granted me my want~ And this one thing, is what i should never had asked.....

I read of books on how hell was...Authors who were personally brought to Hell by Jesus in their spiritual self, as in our soul, or spirit, was taken by Christ to Hell for a visit. I wanted to know how Hell was to know how Hell was like~ and of course, to verify the exaggeration by the authors, which were.....now i know, too unexaggerated.

On 3rd Sept 2009, i read thru again, about how people were being brought to Hell and brought back to Earth. Christ also brought them to Heaven to experience it~ But what captivated me was the horrors of Hell instead of the peace and serenity in Heaven. =.= Again, i asked God....."I want to try Hell!"

And it struck.......

On 4th Sept 2009, at 4am in the morning, which can practically be considered the same day as the 3rd, my body started to feel hot. It was so so so so hot that it began to itch~ I took off my top and to my utter shock~ i realized my body was RED~ I could practically feel heat emitting from my body. like as if my body was an engine with heat being emitted from it. I thought i could do with a bath, and therefore, i took a bath. But to my dismay, the bath....cause the heat and the itch to 'mutated' into PAIN! The pain was tremendous.....so so terrible that i groaned in pain that my brother, Jonathan woke up.....

He saw my condition and wanted to wake my parents but i his attempt was in vain. I told him it was a no-no to tell my parents cause it could just be a minor issue and they need more rest as tomorrow is a working day. My bro listened and then i decided to sleep and let the pain/itch/heat wear off by tomorrow, hopefully. But when i wanted to sleep, my body started to ache....EVERYWHERE! from my arms, to my chest, thighs, legs and even my BUTT!

I couldn't sleep, at all. At about 6.30am, my parents knew about my situation cause my bro spilled the beans when they woke him up from school. I was in a half-asleep situation due to the pains.... My mom said that i had a fever, so i took a panadol and tried to drift backto sleep~

Well, the pain subsided and i practically slept the whole day until about 6pm. I couldn't even fetch Abby from Puduraya bus station tho i promised a day earlier, which was before my situation.... ( i wonder if she's mad about this.....not fetching her.... lol. ^^ )

At about 7pm, i went to the doctor in Midah due to the constant bugging from my mom. I was also thinking that probably i ought to see a doc as H1N1 was on the run at that time~The doc examined me and took 2 tests, 1 for H1N1 and another, a blood test.

After waiting about 30-45 mins for the results of my tests, i was tested negative for H1N1, which was a major relief. However, my blood tests showed some surprising abnormal negative results. In a drop of blood, roughly, the normal count for white blood cells is about 4000-11000. My white blood cells was 17500!!!! It skyrocketed from the normal count~ I was kinda stunned...cause i think in Biology F4 or F5 they did say about when the white blood cells are too much, they'll eat your red blood cells... Lols? I think that is leukemia?

Anyway, the doc told me to be admitted to the hospital immediately. But i was reluctant. Reason? Cause tonight is a Friday night and they'll be a forum in church, and what more, Abby's bday party is on the 6th of Sept.

So, screw it~ I didn't care. I know God will take care of me~ So dun care, i went to church lo~ ^^ After church, about 12am, i made haste for the hospital which was in Gleneagles, Ampang. Oh ya, my parents drove me all the way~~~ ^^

At the hospital, i met the 1st doc. This doc like GP~ Bombard me with questions and gave me a cynical remark~~ "You sick ah? You look too healthy to be sick!!"

I totally went.... "ZHADOU~~" Still, the doc told me to stay in the hospital and get myself admitted... I very compromising person....I made a deal with the doc, i dun mind getting admitted, but on saturday and sunday want home leave~ ^^

And there, i got this motto : "A patient who visits, not visited." =_="

The doc then took 16ml of blood and did some tests with it. And i spent the whole nite at the hospital....Haiz.... My parents and Abby went back about....2am? They must be tired.... T_T

Then on Saturday morning, 5th Sept, the pain WORSENED! This time, the pain is so so so much more excruciating compared to before.....

***Do remember that this post is about "Wading in the Burning Flames of Hell".. Authors of many testimonial books of how they were brought to Hell testified that in Hell, the flames is so so so hot, the condemned will be infested with worms in which they shalt not die nor the fire of Hell ever ceases.***

On friday....It wasn't that itchy~ But on saturday... the itch and the pain, doubled. I tried to refrain myself from scratching the itch on my body cause i duwan my skin to tear..

And so, i took home leave on Saturday and i realized a weird fact. When i'm in normal temperature places such as in my house under the fan, or walking around int he kitchen, i'll feel very hot and i'll start to sweat heavily and the itch and pain will come. I'm not a really big sweated but i actually soaked my whole t-shirt while walking in an alley. But in cold places, like in an air-cond room, the pain and itch would be very less.

Still, this is just the start. IT came to one point that i couldn't bear the pain and itch that i was DESPERATE to be cold..... I took a new t-shirt and i soaked it with tap water, wore the t-shirt and stood infront of a high-speed fan. Yes, i was THAT DESPERATE.... cause the pain....was so so horrific~~~ Words can hardly express the pain......seriously~

***Staying in hopsitals can be so so sad. Especially when you're alone and you realize that your neighbour has his girlfriend to accompany him for the night. You'll tend to feel envious and bored~ But blessed i am~ Abby accompanied me on Saturday night!! ^^ Happy happy~ At least not so lonely and got someone to chat and play with~ Rented a chair for rm5/night...Swt....****

A little pic to ease the long reading words~~ ^^

On Sunday morning, well, obviously i din't go to church. And here comes the worst. Sunday morning's pain and itch was beyond imagination which surpasses human understanding and beyond any recognition. Yes i'm exaggerating but i'm not crapping about how TERRIBLE the pain is....

On Sunday....Lets say, there's a itch on my body. If i don't scratch it, the itch, will slowly turn into pain~ This pain is not normal pain...Its psychotic pain! Pain beyond any words i can ever use to express....And what's worse? If i scratch it....the spots of itch will double! Resulting in 2 more spots of pain!!!

****Exactly like in Hell....Worms will grow on your body~ And when you try to tear them off of throw them away, they'll grow even more on your body and the pain is so so so terrible~~ What more being tormented with pain in the fiery pits of Hell itself~~ i cannot imagine further.....****

While these were all going on...there came a point which i THINK i had a vision.....I saw my body, my human body...from 2nd person point of view. Around my body....were little demons, or imps, flying around my whole body holding forks or spades. These hell-ish and grotesque creatures were piercing and digging into my human flesh....Each time they pierced or digged into my skin, the pain.....was INSANE~

***Just like what those authors who were brought to Hell had written. In Hell, the condemned will be tormented for eternity by little demons...These demons will use their fork and pierce them...The pain and torment will be eternal, with no hopes of escaping. Even those who ask for forgiveness, those who want a 2nd chance, those who learned their lesson, will be too late. For the judgment of Christ is set.****

You may disagree with me at this point that i might be going through a series of torment of Hell....But let me explain more~ ^^

When i was visited by my 2nd doctor.....He told me that they cannot find out whats wrong with me. They suspected bacteria infection in the blood, but still, they cannot be certain, neither do they know the cause.... At this point, is when i suspected that whatever is wrong with me is not of the normalities of the Earth. But more to spiritual warfare.....

To make matters worse? When Abby prayed for me.....The prayer of Healing, i started coughing, for no freaking reason.... I started coughing so bad, when she prayed for me. But, i never had a cough in the first place!!!!

****Oh, sorry guys, forgot let you all see, how i look right? enjoy~

This is just the front view, the back, is also the same, worse actually~ So what does it look like? Rash? Nope. Chicken pox? Nope. Leprosy? Nope. Leukemia? Unlikely.

Hell is all about fire....Somehow, it looks like my body got 'burnt'....with 'invisble' fire~ To backup my point, my body suddenly became like this. I never put any lotion/cream on my body...not even deodorant~ =.=

Back to story :

My 2nd specialist couldn't figure out the problem, so he called a 3rd doctor. A skin specialist. This guy...is real good. I could see intelligence in his eyes, literally. He gave me a statement that i would remember for life.....

"You look DISGUSTINGLY HEALTHY to be SICK!"

Yea....so, NO ONE, could figure out what's wrong with me!!! So, i endured the pain and pain and pain~~~

I took home leave again on sunday, and i was driving around with a tube in my hand.... While driving, i heard a voice. I wont believe that its from my conscience or from my brain or i was imagining things, and i know i will never say this....It goes :

"Hell is a thousand times worse....."

If Hell was a thousand times worse, and i cannot or barely can endure this pain....What more will the flames and torments of Hell bring? I can not imagine the criticality of Hell.....My dear friends, i know God granted me my wish of experiencing Hell.....this is just a test-run for me...for my doubtfulness of the torments of Hell.....And now, i'm experiencing it. And i cannot take it, even if its just 1000 times lesser.....

Abby's bday was in KL. I couldn't really drive so DanielQuah fetched me~ I went to the restaurant > hospital > Restaurant > home. Thanks alot DQ. Paiseh as well~

When i reached the bday venue, gosh....everybody was there....Cause i actually planned a grand-late-entrance. Lol....

Even in the restaurant, during dinner...the 'forces of Hell' never ceased to strike....The pain and itch struck me during conversations and during eating..... I guess those who saw me in pain, how i endured it.....i believe they could feel my pain as well....

Abby went back on Sunday night, the night of her bday party..... Before she left, i made a statement....

"I shall be healed before your actual birthday."

Her actual birthday is on the 9th Sept. I made that statement on the 6th. I was discharged from the hospital on the 8th!!!!

6th, 7th, 8th. 3 days. If i wasn't wrong and if my deduction is right, when i made that statement with faith in my heart that God will heal. Indeed.....He died on Friday and rose on Sunday!!!! 3 days! Jesus LIVES!!!!! He rose from the dead, and won, against the forces of Hell, and death itself. When i realized the fact.....i was....of course, stunned.

People of the Earth, even that i was healed....i never had taken any antibiotics....all i had was anti pain, anti itch, anti rash, anti this anti that~~~ That's all......Amazing huh?

Well folks, this is what happened to me~ Hope you guys will learn something, cause i did....I'll split my lessons i learned into 2. Hardcore, and softcore.

Hardcore :

1) God is real. Heaven is real. HELL IS REAL.....

2) Never test God to ask him for things that are bad for you. (next time i'm gonna ask to experience Heaven!!! ^^ )

3) when we, His children, asketh of Him, He will surely give, just a matter of time~~~~ But its subject to 'what' we ask as well, whether or not it is in accordance in His divine will~

Softcore :

1) learnt to be a light sleeper. Thanks to those nurses who keep waking me up for antiitch/antipain medicine and testing my blood pressure....

2) love is totally and absurdly BLIND.... only a FOOL would risk his health just to do something more important for someone~~~ Yes, i'm the Fool. =.= HAHAHAHA!!!

Well, truly, for me, this is a mind-blowing and head-spinning yet breath-taking experience.....But my friends, Hell is no game for us. What more a place to dwell forever? It is a never-ending curse....

Believe me. Hell exists. Heaven exists. Jesus Christ is real. The path to Hell is wide but the path to Heaven is narrow....

^"13Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.

¹⁴But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." (Matt 7:13-14)

God bless you all.....

Signing off~

jo-Saiya

-={ Waiting is, Tragic }=-

Wait.....Have you guys ever asked yourself "Why must I wait?"
What do we wait for? We wait for our parents to come pick us from schools, tuitions....We wait for the share market values to shoot skyrockets...We wait for our exam results....We wait for our paychecks and look forward to holidays which are at the end of the year when now is January?

What are we waiting for? The ultimate thing to wait for is waiting for the time of our death.....But waiting....?

Sometimes, in life....we have to wait. But lets be honest, i HATE waiting.....I dun like to wait to fetch people, i dun like to wait for cars in front of me being such noob drivers.....Gah~! Why must it owiz be wait and wait and wait?!

Nevertheless, i have to wait. I have to wait for you..... You're gonna be away for 3 years.

3 years = 36mths
36 mths = 1080 days
1080 days = 25920 hours
25920 hours = 1,555,200 minutes
1,555,200 mins = 93,312,000 seconds!!!!!

GOSH!!! i've to wait THAT long? for me to make the next step? T_T

i hate...waiting.....
i want that life, now....
i seeth noneth other....
i wanth noneth other.....

aihzzzz.....well, in 93,312,000 seconds, i'm gonna work my ARSE off. ^_^

the ring is bought,
none other is sought,
never with you i thought,
but guess its with you i'll rot.

time will pass, just have to wait,
but its harder done than said,
but i promise, you'll be my mate,
and none other shalt i date.

when you're gone i'm all alone,
thinking of you, in flesh and bone,
when you're gone my skills i'll hone,
till the day, we sit on our throne.

lets go, and finish your race,
i'll wait for you, you'll definitely get the first place,
and i see you running full of grace,
then, i catch you, with face, to face.

P.S : its hard to understand eh? ^^v

Explaining the Unexplainable

I'm BACK GUYS!!! Miss mE?! i bet u do.....All those guys that reads my blog better stop looking at my girl ady hor.... ROFL~

Hahaha.....i have a lame topic. Anyway topic has noneth to do with what i'm gonna spill here lols..... Well, its been about a month or so that my Internet has been down, so from June-July i malas write but July to August is got Net problems ^_^

Well well.....Yeah i'm finally working. Weird.....You know, when i was in college, i was the GAMER. i was the one that say..."Yo mates, come lets go dotA!" Hahahaha.....and they'll scold me, some'll join, some'll have a 'yerrr-i-duwan-go-can-ah' face...... LOL...

But WEIRDLY....after college's over, i'm the first few....who actually got my ass into a workplace. Yes lets admit....i'm working as a...a...a....a wat? =.= i dun really know what i'm working as zzzzz.....Lets say....a business admin? Lols. Yes for a WATER COMPANY. You got a problem with that? i said i'm working for a WATER COMPANY~

Haha....at 1st, i very....uneasy when ppl ask me what i work as....den ask me WHERE i work.... abt....weird la say i work water factory...but oh well, i'm fine with it now....so i'm WORKING IN A WATER FACTORY!!!! LMAO~

Yep, the gamer-in-college is WORKING, but the bookfreaks-in-college are gaming.....what irony.

Anyway....many NEW updates, hairstyle, clothes, money, girlfriend (WOOPS)....hahaha....kidding. All diff, same ol girl~ ^_^

Well....Anybody believe in 6th senses? Believe in premonitions? Believe in the fact that you can 'read the future'? I don't know.....but i have a feeling i can. I wanna ask the church leaders if any of you are reading this.....do WE, sons and daughters of God have the 'power' of premonitions? Cause its been happening very very rapidly ever since like.....5years ago? but its even more rampant now.....

Weird.....Not weird, more like FREAKY! Its pretty scary when you premonate (if thr's such a word) something, and it actually takes place later......and it doesn't happen once nor twice but nearly ALL THE TIME~ i find it a pretty good asset if i use it in shares or investments. HAhahaha....but no, i can't premonate that. sadly.

Anyway.....I haven't been sleeping for 2 nights already. 1 night due to insomnia, another due to sending Abby all the way back to Johor....Well, its more like a norm already hahaha.....going to Johor at 3am and coming back about 10am and head straight for work....
And guess what? I have to study Chemistry Form4&Form5 to give tuition tmr....ADUH~~~~

Oh well.... Since she's gone, i might as well get my hands on more cash so can splurge on her when she returns. gagaga.....

Well, life's been.....weird these days. Just one word to describe it all.... WeiRd.

Be back fast.....Life's, so plain....when you're....Away.

-=*|JBB&ABC|*=- {Part II}

Part 2. Of JbbAbC~ Heh heh heh~~~ So, have ye all understood or found out the meaning of this secrecy between two bonded souls? ^^

Well, lets talk about...US~ =)

I'll let the pics talk~ ^^ 1 pic = 1000 words rite? ^^

Hehe...After lunch~ We had an Unexpected Time and fun time soon after.... ^^

Hehe~ Brought dear go 'bai lin' with my college heng dai~ =) (if u all realize, same shirt with top) ALOL.....

fetching the 'little one' from work~ under the rain~ =) i miss going to Sbucks. LAWL~Pre-Prom 2009.

The 2nd prom with the fade-effect. I love it.

She trying to cuddle me. I seem drunk. Lawl.

Behold. The combined "eye" of lovers. Who's eye is it? **Scary~ Post-prom.

Ahhh....The 2 goodie-bag-partners-in-love. ^^ Nice smile dear~! =) *My hair looks greenish-brownish-goldenish. T_T i miss my hair~ :'(

Well, this is when, dear celebrate my bday! XP they paid for all T_T

Celebrating the countdown of a brand new year at The Curve. ^^ I'll definitely remember the 'sprayings'! hehehehe~

Taken at TGIF. 1st time for me to go to TGIF lols.... She's wearing the ring i gave her~ Sealed~ ^^

A pic from Black Sand Beach in Langkawi~ ^^

Hmmmm i dono what u call the 'swinging' thing, but i love sitting on it with ya~ =)

Hmmmm...Chee Keong and Cynthia's Wedding. We both look so kiddy~ AWwww~~ ^^

Celebrating her bday at Jusco's 'WongKok'. XP

Weeee~ Dear look so happy having so many gifts~ ^^ your new toy~ hahaha

Taken at 1Utama. Some kind of MAKAN stall nearby. U hungry piggy~ =D

Ooooo....RAVE party~ ^^

Hmmm....Langkawi's waterfall~ ^^ <3>Hmmm, i'll end with this. This is edited using Paint LOLS~ Well, figure out what is JbbAbc ba~ Hehehehe.....


Oh well, these are just SOME pics out of the few thousand pictures that we take~ I'm serious, i think got more than a thousand lols.....

JBBABC, it'll is sealed. *Quoting from P.Mike, "When God puts you both together, no MAN can seperate". I shall cling on these words dear. And do remember, we shall be the 1% that we talked about.

Honestly speaking, you may ask me to sacrifice anything and everything, but not this little one of mine. I'm just.....so badly in love with you. On a 2nd note, 4th grand anni is coming~~ ^^

P.S : I love you.

Pondering....Wondering....

I really am kinda lazy to update this blog hahahaha.....But i guess, i have to write already....Many things are happening in my life....This simple life of mine.

Well, how do we start anyway? Well.....everyday i wake up, thinking of what to do next and all. I usually sit in front of the comp the whole day, gaming, surfing, chatting, facebooking, etc but not blogging lols.....cause lazy type hahaha.....

Anyway.....life's been pretty pretty for me. But now at this junction in life, a crossroad is finally met. To study? Or to work? Study? Work? Study? Work? Study what?! Work what?!

In my entire 19 years of life, i have never had a YEAR which i never studied at all. Each year also got study study study. Well, i have to be grateful that i've stopped my Minda Ceria tuition, Kasturi tuition, "the one at pudu tuition", chinese tuition, piano tuition, etc etc etc. blaaah~ Now i'm free!

But should i study MBA? i really dono........

Well, not only in study life there's a crossroad, even in relationship, there is a crossroad. What will this determine? what will become of me? Will things go accordingly? in His will?

I really dono what i'm becoming into.....i wanna work, but how? what? where? when?? geeez these stupid questions keep popping into my BLAIN~ lol....brain*

But at least, i'm happy now. I'm happy, with Abby. ^^ seeing her nearly at a daily basis really brights up my day. Well, at least i'm not THAT STUCK to the comp eh?! Oh btw did i say i'm not a tv freak?! =D

Oh well, been many many many many places these days~ Sunway, Dessert Bar, Lot10, Pavilion, SG Wang, some weird restocking place, Murni, and a few more spesel spots. ^^
I really look forward to each day.....But, as at for now, will things change....? Or will it remain? Life's good now. Finally the life i want is here. But its only for 1 month. NO....just 1 month?! No!!!!

I want MORE than 1 month! i want MORE than 1 year! i want MORE THAN THIS!!!!!!

i'm just....turning emo~ again~~~~

P.S : Some stupid bazaar today pissed the shit outta me....Cancellation of bazaar without notification requires VALID explanation if not they shall face PROSECUTION!!!!
(wow my rhyming skills are still around. (^^,))

~~~ weeeee~~ 1st hair cut tog!~ XD

Again....

Here i am again....Wake up today....For the 1st time in so many years...I'm actually thinking....What to do??!?!?!?!?! O.O

LAWL~

A Toast to my Mates.

And there we go....College life has finally come to an end. I never felt this bad before...I've ALWAYS wanted to leave college...Cause life might probably be alot more easy and fun. But besides that....I've realized, i will rarely see my mates anymore. Unlike the daily meets, it could just be a monthly, or even just an annual meeting.

I just suddenly.....Feel sad. Despite the happiness of freedom, there is the sad-ness of freedom. Probably this is call the Yin and the Yang of life? I dun really believe in Yin-Yang but somehow....in all aspects of good, there is evil. Or whatever u call it la....

Haiz.....Now i feel terrible. Dang~

So what's next? I've left secondary school life about 3.5years ago. Now, 3.5years later, i leave college. Gah~! But somehow, i know, and i believe, the bond between friends in college life, is much much more of ionic bond compared to secondary life which is covalent bond. Lols! In other words, the bonds in college peeps are stronger than bonds in secondary peeps. Hahaha....

To all my KBU-SHU-BENGEE-1A, 2A and now 3A friends, and to those that were with me since foundation. Thanks for making college life so memorable and sweet. I will never forget them. I still remember those days....When we were GODLIKE NOOBS in dotA, till the point where now, we are of moderate level. ^^

Now that college is over....I really dono what the future holds. Its TOO vague. I've totally lost my interest in enginnering....However, the recent study sessions, with Tham, Kemin and KenWee, somehow....did boost back my 'love' in Engineering. Its weird. I really dun understand.....

Anyway....Life still goes on doesn't it. I will definitely miss my college life. I will miss the time we can chat nonstop. The time when we go for lunch together. The respect that you all give me. The fun, joy, anger, arguments, etc that we share together. And of course, the time for GAMES that we spent together! Hahahahhaha!!!

Well....I shud just drop some 'love' to those peeps that made college life....fun. Shall i? Even if you guys are not reading, do know that you guys have a place in my heart. *Gawd i sound GAY!* Haha!!! =)

1) Tham, Eugene - Dude, u're one of my best mates in college. I know ALL your secrets, and you know mine. Nearly all i wud say. Well....i do argue with u at times, but i think, its just one of the small little errors in life that just happen. Haha....I have to admit, at times, you are one person i could count on. Tks man....Dun let girls bring you down okay?!

2) Ke Min - Bah~! You joker-of-all-times. You can play with FOOD, NOTES, drinks, CARS, and practically nearly EVERYTHING under the sky. lols....Yep, you make coll life more interesting eh? Sitting next to me in class, 'molesting' my back while i 'molest' yours. Hahahahha.....I shall miss that. XP

3) KenWee - Yep. You. You are the one who gave me the 1st impression of an academic genius. And yep, i was and am not wrong. ^^ It shocks me that you invited me to be part and parcel of your group for FYP, despite my 'good' performances in exams. And well, FYP was a real challenge, thank you for the help that you gave to me. And the knowledge that was shared, proved vital in my finals. And not forgetting your condo. Its a really good place to study, no internet = no distractions. Haha.....Tks man. Owe u one. =D

4) Alvin - You are the giga-amplifier of the class! Gah! Can u like stop talking for 1min?! Lols....Anyway, its cool to have u in. No u = no fun. XP Hahahaha.....

5) Yessy+Jul - After 3.5years, i still don't know you girls that much. You both are one of the only girls i know in 3.5years of college. Lols.....Anyway, at times i do remember that you both helped me, in transport and studies, esp Jul. Do keep in touch, irregardless. okay? =)

6) The rest of my mates - If i never stated you, dun think that you're less important. Just too many to write hahaha....I can only conclude one thing. IF there were LESS ONE PERSON in our class, BENGEEE-SHU-3A will never be BENGEEE-SHU-3A. You guys rock. I'll remember you guys, FOR LIFE. That's text typed from my hand, word spoke from my mouth, and a promise kept in heart.

And with this, as college finally comes to an end. Do take care peeps. Keep in touch always! Its a MUST! Hahaha....And of course, all the best in life. =)

P.S : Wanna plan a last holiday outing? =)

Finale~!

FINALLY!~ THE WAR HAS ENDED!!!! Now i just left bits and pieces of the final piece of the puzzle.....Yeah~! WOooooT~! muahahahahhahahaa!!!

Job-Mania

Should i start finding a job now? Or later? Under constant bombardment from parents to get a job. Gah!!~ Anyway....where to find a job? O.O"

Anybody got job for me? Lols....

Exam Exam Exam....

Well, so far, 3-quarters of exam down the drain. Left 1 final paper. Which is OptoElectronics and MicroEngineering. T_T

It sounds pretty complicated eh? Lawl~ Well, after that.....got presentation of project + demo. T_T i am so screwed. Kinda scared lerh......if i cannot answer questions throwed to me macam mana? mati la?? Lawl......Aihz....

Anyway, guess that jbbabc post part2 will not be coming up yet, cause....still banyak to do with it. lols....gonna do silly stuff but just kinda busy and no Internet connection when i study. Hahaha....Nowadays i study in friend's condo, no internet de. No Internet = NO DISTRACTION. Lols.....We all know la, i'm a gamer. XD ( we all have to agree on this. ^^ )

Anyway.....just wanna thank God for pulling me thru this 2 weeks of stress and stress and stress. Kinda like the 1st time in my entire life that i put SO MUCH effort in studying. And guess what? Everytime before i study and when i enter the exam hall, i pray. Pray pray pray. And wanna know the results???

Dang dang dang dang~~~~

It actually came out nearly EXACTLY what i studied. Well, 1st paper was a not so nice one....Cause its like....Unexpected i wud say.

2nd paper is....hola~! Exactly what i studied. ^^v

3rd paper is....oh! Dang! hahahaha....i remember 50% of what i studied, another 50% is I FORGOT LIAO~ Lol.....i studied. BUT LUPA. So main tembak.....*Bang Bang Bang!* Lolssss.....So, now left last paper.... ^^

But really. I think, i din really prepare well for these papers. But somehow...thru prayers, somehow God led me to study the *highlighted* stuffs. Really....I mean, got some tips la, but.....somehow, something prompts me to study this chapter and that chapter. Lols....And eventually, it came out. ^^ to Him be all glory. =p

Anyway....Keep me in prayers for my final paper, my final assignment, my final presentation and my final demo for project. After all these 4 things are done, i am considered.....A FREE MAN. ^^

I'll be looking for a job then~~~~ ^^

signing off for games~ lol.....
jo-Saiya

The Battle Lost.

Yep. 1st exam was fighting a losing-battle. Totally screwed up. T_T i am in deep shit now. ZZZzzzzz....Gah~ Now what? Another 3 more papers? blahhhh~~ can't wait for this crap to end. Gahhhh~!!!

Anyway, wed's papers was a total whacko~ Kanasai~~~ Sibei GG~ T_T

Oh well, another 3 papers + 1 demo + re-do thesis.....sobzzz. when will this nightmare be over~ T_T


sneak preview,
coming-up-next,
Next title of post : -=*| JBB&ABC |*=- {Part II} wahahahahahA~ LAWL~

-=*| JBB&ABC |*=- {Part II}

Part 2. Of JbbAbC~ Heh heh heh~~~ So, have ye all understood or found out the meaning of this secrecy between two bonded souls? ^^

Well, lets talk about...US~ =)

I'll let the pics talk~ ^^ 1 pic = 1000 words rite? ^^

Hehe...After lunch~ We had an Unexpected Time and fun time soon after.... ^^

Hehe~ Brought dear go 'bai lin' with my college heng dai~ =) (if u all realize, same shirt with top) ALOL.....

fetching the 'little one' from work~ under the rain~ =) i miss going to Sbucks. LAWL~Pre-Prom 2009.

The 2nd prom with the fade-effect. I love it.

She trying to cuddle me. I seem drunk. Lawl.

Behold. The combined "eye" of lovers. Who's eye is it? **Scary~ Post-prom.

Ahhh....The 2 goodie-bag-partners-in-love. ^^ Nice smile dear~! =) *My hair looks greenish-brownish-goldenish. T_T i miss my hair~ :'(

Well, this is when, dear celebrate my bday! XP they paid for all T_T

Celebrating the countdown of a brand new year at The Curve. ^^ I'll definitely remember the 'sprayings'! hehehehe~

Taken at TGIF. 1st time for me to go to TGIF lols.... She's wearing the ring i gave her~ Sealed~ ^^

A pic from Black Sand Beach in Langkawi~ ^^

Hmmmm i dono what u call the 'swinging' thing, but i love sitting on it with ya~ =)

Hmmmm...Chee Keong and Cynthia's Wedding. We both look so kiddy~ AWwww~~ ^^

Celebrating her bday at Jusco's 'WongKok'. XP

Weeee~ Dear look so happy having so many gifts~ ^^ your new toy~ hahaha

Taken at 1Utama. Some kind of MAKAN stall nearby. U hungry piggy~ =D

Ooooo....RAVE party~ ^^

Hmmm....Langkawi's waterfall~ ^^ <3>Hmmm, i'll end with this. This is edited using Paint LOLS~ Well, figure out what is JbbAbc ba~ Hehehehe.....


Oh well, these are just SOME pics out of the few thousand pictures that we take~ I'm serious, i think got more than a thousand lols.....

JBBABC, it'll is sealed. *Quoting from P.Mike, "When God puts you both together, no MAN can seperate". I shall cling on these words dear. And do remember, we shall be the 1% that we talked about.

Honestly speaking, you may ask me to sacrifice anything and everything, but not this little one of mine. I'm just.....so badly in love with you. On a 2nd note, 4th grand anni is coming~~ ^^

P.S : I love you.

Stupidity Unfold.

Here goes, MY stupidity.

Again, i left my car keys in the car. Gosh... T_T
This time was a REAL accident. I was like so so in a rush to print my 50+ pages of thesis (FRIGGING LITTLE) T_T

I brought my printer to BU to do my work coz paiseh la lend ppl's printer meh? lols....i reached here on sunday abt 6pm+.

6.00pm - Reach BU
6.30pm - Start Chapter1
9.00pm - Start Chapter2
2.00am - Start Chapter3
6.00am - Start Chapter4
8.00am - TERSLEPT!!!!
10.00am - Woke up....and went into a FRENZY~ T_T
10.30am - Continued Chap4
1.00pm - Start Chap5 and Conclusion
2.00pm - Wanted to print. Here is when mishap happens. (elaboration below)
3.30pm - Go for binding. Speed of car 80km/hour in residental area
3.50pm - Hand in Thesis at college
4.00pm - Dinner+Supper+Breakfast+Lunch Combo at McD

Time to hand in thesis was at 4pm. Phew~ I did complete my thesis!!! ^^ Record ^^v

Anyway....Lets do elaboration on stupidity. Hehehehehe.....

at 2pm, i kaotim all ady.....So i wan print. I took out my printer from my car boot. And i SLAMMED THE DOOR SHUT!!! And....i realized, MY KEYS ARE INSIDE THE BOOT!!!!!

LAWL~ Anyway, i was stunned, shocked, i went 'shit shit shit'....lols. Anyway, i called for reinforcements from the house in BU and about 3 teams came, Team Mao, Team Lau and Team Ong. Lols..... 3 teams = 3 ppl lar. ^^

Then we tried opening the car using a HANGER. Lols....yes a hanger. But kenot cari the knot to open the car. Tried going in thru the windowscreen to push the lock up but failed. Guess what?!

WE RESORTED TO YOUTUBE~~~ How to open a locked car without a key~ LOLS!!!!!

Well, many methods there lar.....won't tell tho hahahahaha....We tried then using a string to go thru the window screen. LOLS~~ zha dou. Den we see see, kenot.... T_T Then we use back the hanger. Lols.... Eventually after many tries and tries, hehehehe....the door was opened. ^^

Total length of time of ordeal is....hmmm....20mins under the scorching sun. T_T gosh the heat wave is crazy~~~ Lols.....And there goes,

jo-Saiya's StupiditY~ Yet, the intellectual part still owns~ ^^

Anyway, i couldn't do it without my 3 reinforcements. ^^

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OMGAWD~~~~ OMGGGG~~~ ITS SO SO SO..... ARGH i'm SPEECHLESS~~~! ROFLMAO~!

i wanna go to dubai....
i wanna go to dubai.....
i wanna go to dubai...... (everyday repeat this mantra 5x, i confirm get to go dubai~ LAWL~)

I SO SO SO WANNA GOOOOOO~~~~!!!! XO