Wading in the Burning Flames of Hell

" 1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

²He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

³He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

⁴Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

⁵You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

⁶Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever. " (Psalm 23:1-6)

-- This Psalm above is just so so...soothing? I somehow like this psalm a lot...Weirdly~ Cause it probably gives me a sense of....security from God? ^^ The feeling that God is always weith me, and will always protect me, and shall never leave me in the presence of my 'enemy'. A feeling....none other can giveth~

Be prepared for a LONG LONG post~~~~

Well, i believe you peeps heard of me being admitted to the hospital right? But i believe, only a handful of you all knows the reason to why i'm being admitted to the ospital out of a sudden. So, i'm gonna talk about it here....

The italics is add-ons. The normal fonts is the story. The yellows are Scriptures.

*(whatever that is stated below is 101% true, and it happened. If you do not believe....i'm sorry. ^^)

In the Bible, God gave us many many many many promises.... Promises that we can claim from God himself. One of the promises that i ALWAYS hold on is the promise that goes.....

"Ask and ye shall receive, seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you.

Matthew 7:7"

This promise is very very very true~ a very promising promise, to the point that it always comes true....at least for me. Thank God. Whatever you may read later on may be bizarre, or a myth, or an exaggeration from me, but mark my words, the 'unseeable' realm....is scary~

Story starts :

These days, i've been reading alot about people being brought to Hell by God. When i read about this horrific horror and terror that lurks in the depths of Hell, i asked God....

"Why them? Why not me? Is Hell that terrible? Surely i couldn't be THAT terrible right? Its unfair! I want to experience Hell! Let me TRY Hell......."

Well, obviously my wish wasn't His command, YET. However, after many many days, nearly weeks of asking, He finally....granted me my want~ And this one thing, is what i should never had asked.....

I read of books on how hell was...Authors who were personally brought to Hell by Jesus in their spiritual self, as in our soul, or spirit, was taken by Christ to Hell for a visit. I wanted to know how Hell was to know how Hell was like~ and of course, to verify the exaggeration by the authors, which were.....now i know, too unexaggerated.

On 3rd Sept 2009, i read thru again, about how people were being brought to Hell and brought back to Earth. Christ also brought them to Heaven to experience it~ But what captivated me was the horrors of Hell instead of the peace and serenity in Heaven. =.= Again, i asked God....."I want to try Hell!"

And it struck.......

On 4th Sept 2009, at 4am in the morning, which can practically be considered the same day as the 3rd, my body started to feel hot. It was so so so so hot that it began to itch~ I took off my top and to my utter shock~ i realized my body was RED~ I could practically feel heat emitting from my body. like as if my body was an engine with heat being emitted from it. I thought i could do with a bath, and therefore, i took a bath. But to my dismay, the bath....cause the heat and the itch to 'mutated' into PAIN! The pain was tremendous.....so so terrible that i groaned in pain that my brother, Jonathan woke up.....

He saw my condition and wanted to wake my parents but i his attempt was in vain. I told him it was a no-no to tell my parents cause it could just be a minor issue and they need more rest as tomorrow is a working day. My bro listened and then i decided to sleep and let the pain/itch/heat wear off by tomorrow, hopefully. But when i wanted to sleep, my body started to ache....EVERYWHERE! from my arms, to my chest, thighs, legs and even my BUTT!

I couldn't sleep, at all. At about 6.30am, my parents knew about my situation cause my bro spilled the beans when they woke him up from school. I was in a half-asleep situation due to the pains.... My mom said that i had a fever, so i took a panadol and tried to drift backto sleep~

Well, the pain subsided and i practically slept the whole day until about 6pm. I couldn't even fetch Abby from Puduraya bus station tho i promised a day earlier, which was before my situation.... ( i wonder if she's mad about this.....not fetching her.... lol. ^^ )

At about 7pm, i went to the doctor in Midah due to the constant bugging from my mom. I was also thinking that probably i ought to see a doc as H1N1 was on the run at that time~The doc examined me and took 2 tests, 1 for H1N1 and another, a blood test.

After waiting about 30-45 mins for the results of my tests, i was tested negative for H1N1, which was a major relief. However, my blood tests showed some surprising abnormal negative results. In a drop of blood, roughly, the normal count for white blood cells is about 4000-11000. My white blood cells was 17500!!!! It skyrocketed from the normal count~ I was kinda stunned...cause i think in Biology F4 or F5 they did say about when the white blood cells are too much, they'll eat your red blood cells... Lols? I think that is leukemia?

Anyway, the doc told me to be admitted to the hospital immediately. But i was reluctant. Reason? Cause tonight is a Friday night and they'll be a forum in church, and what more, Abby's bday party is on the 6th of Sept.

So, screw it~ I didn't care. I know God will take care of me~ So dun care, i went to church lo~ ^^ After church, about 12am, i made haste for the hospital which was in Gleneagles, Ampang. Oh ya, my parents drove me all the way~~~ ^^

At the hospital, i met the 1st doc. This doc like GP~ Bombard me with questions and gave me a cynical remark~~ "You sick ah? You look too healthy to be sick!!"

I totally went.... "ZHADOU~~" Still, the doc told me to stay in the hospital and get myself admitted... I very compromising person....I made a deal with the doc, i dun mind getting admitted, but on saturday and sunday want home leave~ ^^

And there, i got this motto : "A patient who visits, not visited." =_="

The doc then took 16ml of blood and did some tests with it. And i spent the whole nite at the hospital....Haiz.... My parents and Abby went back about....2am? They must be tired.... T_T

Then on Saturday morning, 5th Sept, the pain WORSENED! This time, the pain is so so so much more excruciating compared to before.....

***Do remember that this post is about "Wading in the Burning Flames of Hell".. Authors of many testimonial books of how they were brought to Hell testified that in Hell, the flames is so so so hot, the condemned will be infested with worms in which they shalt not die nor the fire of Hell ever ceases.***

On friday....It wasn't that itchy~ But on saturday... the itch and the pain, doubled. I tried to refrain myself from scratching the itch on my body cause i duwan my skin to tear..

And so, i took home leave on Saturday and i realized a weird fact. When i'm in normal temperature places such as in my house under the fan, or walking around int he kitchen, i'll feel very hot and i'll start to sweat heavily and the itch and pain will come. I'm not a really big sweated but i actually soaked my whole t-shirt while walking in an alley. But in cold places, like in an air-cond room, the pain and itch would be very less.

Still, this is just the start. IT came to one point that i couldn't bear the pain and itch that i was DESPERATE to be cold..... I took a new t-shirt and i soaked it with tap water, wore the t-shirt and stood infront of a high-speed fan. Yes, i was THAT DESPERATE.... cause the pain....was so so horrific~~~ Words can hardly express the pain......seriously~

***Staying in hopsitals can be so so sad. Especially when you're alone and you realize that your neighbour has his girlfriend to accompany him for the night. You'll tend to feel envious and bored~ But blessed i am~ Abby accompanied me on Saturday night!! ^^ Happy happy~ At least not so lonely and got someone to chat and play with~ Rented a chair for rm5/night...Swt....****

A little pic to ease the long reading words~~ ^^

On Sunday morning, well, obviously i din't go to church. And here comes the worst. Sunday morning's pain and itch was beyond imagination which surpasses human understanding and beyond any recognition. Yes i'm exaggerating but i'm not crapping about how TERRIBLE the pain is....

On Sunday....Lets say, there's a itch on my body. If i don't scratch it, the itch, will slowly turn into pain~ This pain is not normal pain...Its psychotic pain! Pain beyond any words i can ever use to express....And what's worse? If i scratch it....the spots of itch will double! Resulting in 2 more spots of pain!!!

****Exactly like in Hell....Worms will grow on your body~ And when you try to tear them off of throw them away, they'll grow even more on your body and the pain is so so so terrible~~ What more being tormented with pain in the fiery pits of Hell itself~~ i cannot imagine further.....****

While these were all going on...there came a point which i THINK i had a vision.....I saw my body, my human body...from 2nd person point of view. Around my body....were little demons, or imps, flying around my whole body holding forks or spades. These hell-ish and grotesque creatures were piercing and digging into my human flesh....Each time they pierced or digged into my skin, the pain.....was INSANE~

***Just like what those authors who were brought to Hell had written. In Hell, the condemned will be tormented for eternity by little demons...These demons will use their fork and pierce them...The pain and torment will be eternal, with no hopes of escaping. Even those who ask for forgiveness, those who want a 2nd chance, those who learned their lesson, will be too late. For the judgment of Christ is set.****

You may disagree with me at this point that i might be going through a series of torment of Hell....But let me explain more~ ^^

When i was visited by my 2nd doctor.....He told me that they cannot find out whats wrong with me. They suspected bacteria infection in the blood, but still, they cannot be certain, neither do they know the cause.... At this point, is when i suspected that whatever is wrong with me is not of the normalities of the Earth. But more to spiritual warfare.....

To make matters worse? When Abby prayed for me.....The prayer of Healing, i started coughing, for no freaking reason.... I started coughing so bad, when she prayed for me. But, i never had a cough in the first place!!!!

****Oh, sorry guys, forgot let you all see, how i look right? enjoy~

This is just the front view, the back, is also the same, worse actually~ So what does it look like? Rash? Nope. Chicken pox? Nope. Leprosy? Nope. Leukemia? Unlikely.

Hell is all about fire....Somehow, it looks like my body got 'burnt'....with 'invisble' fire~ To backup my point, my body suddenly became like this. I never put any lotion/cream on my body...not even deodorant~ =.=

Back to story :

My 2nd specialist couldn't figure out the problem, so he called a 3rd doctor. A skin specialist. This guy...is real good. I could see intelligence in his eyes, literally. He gave me a statement that i would remember for life.....

"You look DISGUSTINGLY HEALTHY to be SICK!"

Yea....so, NO ONE, could figure out what's wrong with me!!! So, i endured the pain and pain and pain~~~

I took home leave again on sunday, and i was driving around with a tube in my hand.... While driving, i heard a voice. I wont believe that its from my conscience or from my brain or i was imagining things, and i know i will never say this....It goes :

"Hell is a thousand times worse....."

If Hell was a thousand times worse, and i cannot or barely can endure this pain....What more will the flames and torments of Hell bring? I can not imagine the criticality of Hell.....My dear friends, i know God granted me my wish of experiencing Hell.....this is just a test-run for me...for my doubtfulness of the torments of Hell.....And now, i'm experiencing it. And i cannot take it, even if its just 1000 times lesser.....

Abby's bday was in KL. I couldn't really drive so DanielQuah fetched me~ I went to the restaurant > hospital > Restaurant > home. Thanks alot DQ. Paiseh as well~

When i reached the bday venue, gosh....everybody was there....Cause i actually planned a grand-late-entrance. Lol....

Even in the restaurant, during dinner...the 'forces of Hell' never ceased to strike....The pain and itch struck me during conversations and during eating..... I guess those who saw me in pain, how i endured it.....i believe they could feel my pain as well....

Abby went back on Sunday night, the night of her bday party..... Before she left, i made a statement....

"I shall be healed before your actual birthday."

Her actual birthday is on the 9th Sept. I made that statement on the 6th. I was discharged from the hospital on the 8th!!!!

6th, 7th, 8th. 3 days. If i wasn't wrong and if my deduction is right, when i made that statement with faith in my heart that God will heal. Indeed.....He died on Friday and rose on Sunday!!!! 3 days! Jesus LIVES!!!!! He rose from the dead, and won, against the forces of Hell, and death itself. When i realized the fact.....i was....of course, stunned.

People of the Earth, even that i was healed....i never had taken any antibiotics....all i had was anti pain, anti itch, anti rash, anti this anti that~~~ That's all......Amazing huh?

Well folks, this is what happened to me~ Hope you guys will learn something, cause i did....I'll split my lessons i learned into 2. Hardcore, and softcore.

Hardcore :

1) God is real. Heaven is real. HELL IS REAL.....

2) Never test God to ask him for things that are bad for you. (next time i'm gonna ask to experience Heaven!!! ^^ )

3) when we, His children, asketh of Him, He will surely give, just a matter of time~~~~ But its subject to 'what' we ask as well, whether or not it is in accordance in His divine will~

Softcore :

1) learnt to be a light sleeper. Thanks to those nurses who keep waking me up for antiitch/antipain medicine and testing my blood pressure....

2) love is totally and absurdly BLIND.... only a FOOL would risk his health just to do something more important for someone~~~ Yes, i'm the Fool. =.= HAHAHAHA!!!

Well, truly, for me, this is a mind-blowing and head-spinning yet breath-taking experience.....But my friends, Hell is no game for us. What more a place to dwell forever? It is a never-ending curse....

Believe me. Hell exists. Heaven exists. Jesus Christ is real. The path to Hell is wide but the path to Heaven is narrow....

^"13Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.

¹⁴But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." (Matt 7:13-14)

God bless you all.....

Signing off~

jo-Saiya