Life is freaking weird and full of uncertainties eh? And especially with our Lord God Almighty, even the impossible, is made possible. Not only is life weird, humans, are....too. Dun u think so? Come to think of it, i actually went to F.A.N night at church.....And i got more than what i opted for....Somehow, part of me tells that its divine intervention....Cause the thing is i nearly NEVER go to F.A.N nights. Lolz.....
Cutting the story short, the night started of with just chatting and fellowshipping, followed by a little testimony by Uncle Lau, and of course, worship. =)
After that, Pastor Andrew, aka head of Music Department ( if i'm not mistaken...lol ), kinda gave a speech/lecture.......or shud i say a little sermon. The session talked about perseverance, and the willingness to be "knocked" by God. And of course, total surrendence. Well, after that we had a little something like a "prayer walk", as in we all just prayed in a circle....Yeap, the moment I started praying, i immediately sensed....That the Holy Spirit was around. His presence was so so so dominating, so strong, so immense. Then we prayed and prayed and prayed.....and then it kinda ended.
Now here comes the weirdest part, Pastor Andrew kinda passed the mike around, asking whether did God say anything to either of us, or did we have a vision or etc. Well from Pastor Andrew to me, the amount of people would be around....more then 14? about there lar.....all were just passing around....and passing around. Well, for a guy like me, i'm not those that like to have ALL the attention....lolz. And so i decided to let it pass, despite having a strong feeling to speak.
Somehow....when the mike came to me. I couldn't let it go. I wanted to pass to daniel, who was next to me, but amazingly....all i did was put it close to my mouth, and speak. =.="
All i could say, was that....
"Everyday in life, we face problems and troubles. We face uncertainties and we face circumstances. Honestly speaking, my walk with God ain't 101% satisfying...to be honest. Everyday in my life i face problems, troubles, worries and everything. But during the prayer, i felt peace. i felt home. i felt belonged. i felt loved. We may know it or not know it, but God assures, that whenever we are in times of trials, we can always, always....look to Him. For he will never leave us, nor forsake us. And he wants the best for those that trust in Him."
And then, Ps.Andrew just said...."Lets pray for him."
And yea, the leaders came, laying hands upon hands on me, speaking words of wisdom and truth, words of encouragement and words of love. I had visualizations of things, things that are happening around me, and things that are happening in the past. The hurts, the disappointment, the pain, the anger.....it kinda went into "unleash" mode. I cried. I shook. I coughed. It feels like as if "something" was coming outta me. It feels as if that there was an "inner being"....I felt like screaming. I felt like scolding, i felt anger. But the Lord took it all. I din scream, i din scold, and anger....was gone.
Sis Sook Leng, one that i know not well of, spoke precise truth about my life. So precise that only those closest to me will understand and agree with her words of wisdom. For me, the "tempest" that was within me was "tamed". But i felt weird. It feels like a whole new life has taken over.....at that time.
Well, why i say ask an inch yet received a yard? Cause my main purpose was to find Bro. Teik Gee for some stuff. But he din show up, and i got this blessing. Truly....what else can i say; but.....God is great.
logging off,
jo-Saiya
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
A Tribute, from a friend.
**wrote this at church and he, Josiah, dare me to post this up after i let him read the poem. Wanted to write something else but he took the paper and the pen away. Took out my hp to type but inspiration gone! =[ Since he wrote a short poem bout me with mixture of language so i decided to write bout him! and here it goes: *
Word from the blog owner ---> Thank you for the poem. Its meaningful, and pretty true. Lols....
Copyright by Charis.
Josiah Wu,
who was once a child,
a young boy with two brothers,
a cute little sister with a mum and a dad
Josiah Wu,
has grown up by now,
from a baby to a kid,
from a kid to youth
Josiah Wu,
who was once an innocent boy,
who was once a role model,
a person to look up to
Josiah Wu,
at the age of 19 going on 20,
walking down the road,
the journey of his life
He wonder, he ponder
what has he done in the past,
was that the right decision?
was that what he really wants?
Thinking all night long,
sleepless night is what he does,
questions left with no answers is all he gain
again another day has passed
Wanting to move on he is,
he did, he managed
wait, stop he paused,
walking backwards is what he did
Again he wonder,
why did he move back?
why can't he just move on,
back at square one he is
What will happen is what he wonders,
it is not me nor you to know,
it is none but only God will know
that is all i gonna say
who was once a child,
a young boy with two brothers,
a cute little sister with a mum and a dad
Josiah Wu,
has grown up by now,
from a baby to a kid,
from a kid to youth
Josiah Wu,
who was once an innocent boy,
who was once a role model,
a person to look up to
Josiah Wu,
at the age of 19 going on 20,
walking down the road,
the journey of his life
He wonder, he ponder
what has he done in the past,
was that the right decision?
was that what he really wants?
Thinking all night long,
sleepless night is what he does,
questions left with no answers is all he gain
again another day has passed
Wanting to move on he is,
he did, he managed
wait, stop he paused,
walking backwards is what he did
Again he wonder,
why did he move back?
why can't he just move on,
back at square one he is
What will happen is what he wonders,
it is not me nor you to know,
it is none but only God will know
that is all i gonna say
Word from the blog owner ---> Thank you for the poem. Its meaningful, and pretty true. Lols....
Copyright by Charis.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
The lesson about Failure.
Heyz people. I'm not gonna post about "My Failures". I'm just posting the "lesson about failure"...
Today's a friday. I was home, the whole day....Was freaking fed up with doing my project. i really duwanna bother much about it anymore actually. But i know, i cannot. The project is the most important thing in Yr3, aka Final Year. I'm in hot soup now. I really have no idea how to continue doing that project. I dono how to do it, i dono how to finish it. Dun say finish la, i don even know how to START it!!!!
Anyway, i was invited to CG today. After thus long~~~ So i went, despite being caught in the rain and nearly freezing to death. I went in the house, all soaky wet....And have to lan si abit say i not cold at all, while i was pretty cold actually~ Hahahahahhaha....I think i was late, coz no sing praise and worship today....Lol....
And then, lesson start lo. Sister Katrina taught.....oops~ i mean, Sister Karena thought for the night. The lesson is about "Failure".
Failure has many substantials....There can be failure in feelings, in situations, thoughts, people, heart, expressions, colour (Lol this is weird), and etc....Why so many failures one will ask? Well....After an entire session at the CG, and after consulting a friend, it comes to conclusion that....Failures happen, so that we can learn from it. We, as humans, will never learn, unless we have to bear the consequences of the wrong that we did, of the negligence that we have once had. There's a saying..."No pain, no gain." Right???
Failures happen in everyday life....regardless of age, sex, race, religion, etc etc. But....What do we do when we face failure? For me....As i have shared in CG today....My biggest failure was failing an entire exam. Its not just a normal exam....Its a MAJOR exam....Its a final year exam. And yea, i failed all papers.....I failed all 4 papers. I really lost hope that time. I totally lost myself and fled into another world. A world of gloom and sorrow. A world that despises oneself and a world that sucks of all the "essence of sanity" from my soul within.....
But thankfully, i have support. From a few friends, God, and family....i was knocked back into reality. Being knocked out into sense and facing reality isn't a really nice thing to do. Cause the truth hurts....Well...I did pick myself up, and yeah....With God's grace, i managed to pass all 4 papers, less than a month later. What that shocked me was, when i sat for the 4 papers for the 1st time, all 4 papers were held in a 3week span. But the resit, was in a 1 week span. And miraculously, i passed all in that 1 week. I managed to cover an entire year's work, in less than a month. Thank God....
Well, that'll be my own testimony....Failures, are not meant to be a stumbling block for us in life, but failures, are meant to be a STEPPING STONE, for us to rise!!!!
I'll end with this....when we fail, there are only, a few steps....to do. At least, that's what i learned....
1) Acknowledge that you FAIL! (esp guys! dun so egoistic..)
2) Recognize that God understands
3) Forgive urself!!!!
4) Know that failure is perfectly FINE.
5) TRY AGAIN!!!!!
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However, in MY own circle of life, i have a question. Which, all are welcomed to answer....
--> After failing once, what are the odds...of trying again? Will there REALLY be a 2nd chance??
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signing off,
Josh~
Today's a friday. I was home, the whole day....Was freaking fed up with doing my project. i really duwanna bother much about it anymore actually. But i know, i cannot. The project is the most important thing in Yr3, aka Final Year. I'm in hot soup now. I really have no idea how to continue doing that project. I dono how to do it, i dono how to finish it. Dun say finish la, i don even know how to START it!!!!
Anyway, i was invited to CG today. After thus long~~~ So i went, despite being caught in the rain and nearly freezing to death. I went in the house, all soaky wet....And have to lan si abit say i not cold at all, while i was pretty cold actually~ Hahahahahhaha....I think i was late, coz no sing praise and worship today....Lol....
And then, lesson start lo. Sister Katrina taught.....oops~ i mean, Sister Karena thought for the night. The lesson is about "Failure".
Failure has many substantials....There can be failure in feelings, in situations, thoughts, people, heart, expressions, colour (Lol this is weird), and etc....Why so many failures one will ask? Well....After an entire session at the CG, and after consulting a friend, it comes to conclusion that....Failures happen, so that we can learn from it. We, as humans, will never learn, unless we have to bear the consequences of the wrong that we did, of the negligence that we have once had. There's a saying..."No pain, no gain." Right???
Failures happen in everyday life....regardless of age, sex, race, religion, etc etc. But....What do we do when we face failure? For me....As i have shared in CG today....My biggest failure was failing an entire exam. Its not just a normal exam....Its a MAJOR exam....Its a final year exam. And yea, i failed all papers.....I failed all 4 papers. I really lost hope that time. I totally lost myself and fled into another world. A world of gloom and sorrow. A world that despises oneself and a world that sucks of all the "essence of sanity" from my soul within.....
But thankfully, i have support. From a few friends, God, and family....i was knocked back into reality. Being knocked out into sense and facing reality isn't a really nice thing to do. Cause the truth hurts....Well...I did pick myself up, and yeah....With God's grace, i managed to pass all 4 papers, less than a month later. What that shocked me was, when i sat for the 4 papers for the 1st time, all 4 papers were held in a 3week span. But the resit, was in a 1 week span. And miraculously, i passed all in that 1 week. I managed to cover an entire year's work, in less than a month. Thank God....
Well, that'll be my own testimony....Failures, are not meant to be a stumbling block for us in life, but failures, are meant to be a STEPPING STONE, for us to rise!!!!
I'll end with this....when we fail, there are only, a few steps....to do. At least, that's what i learned....
1) Acknowledge that you FAIL! (esp guys! dun so egoistic..)
2) Recognize that God understands
3) Forgive urself!!!!
4) Know that failure is perfectly FINE.
5) TRY AGAIN!!!!!
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However, in MY own circle of life, i have a question. Which, all are welcomed to answer....
--> After failing once, what are the odds...of trying again? Will there REALLY be a 2nd chance??
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signing off,
Josh~
Thursday, November 13, 2008
The lame-ness of me.
Hahahahaha.....
Piratey-Josh~! XD yeng bo? got cigar, got X-marks the spot, got gold coins, got blablabla~~~ XD
Hahahahahhaa~~~~ XD
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Stress stress stress.....
Stress and stress. is that all i can see for now? So many work, so many things to do, so many responsibilities until at times i forget this and that, so many problems, so many occasions, so many un-finished business, so many events, so many distractions.....so many....
Where am i heading? Which direction am i going? Is the path right? Or is it wrong? Once again i stumble upon this crossroads....i dono whether its a split road, a T-junction, or a crossroad. To be frank, this sucks. I dono why in the world i took up engineering....Did i pursue the wrong thing? I would prefer business and arts now....Its not a matter of earning money or what....but somehow i'm already bored with engineering. I'm kinda drained of all my energy....
Everybody wants life to be perfect, simple, and fun. A life without work and fun without boundaries. Everybody loves to enjoy the sea breeze, or to relax in the countryside or reside at the hilltop...Who doesn't? I always want to do that. To enjoy the last remnants of my life, enjoying. Instead of being bothered by the boredom and the "responsibilities" of life. Yea, u can call me irresponsible. But i only direct my "irresponsibility", or shud i say negligence, towards certain issues. That's all.
Haiz...i still have another 7months ahead. What will these 7 months determine? I am determined to end it well, but as the saying goes, the spirit is strong, but the flesh is weak....How am i supposed to do it? I'm talking about results here. To me, results isn't all that matters. But i dono the world,...Parents keep nagging saying results is NEAR everything. I don't know.....But somehow i feel, being able to deal with a person and communicate with a person is more than matters. In other words, relationship between people. And these kind of relationships can surpass all boundaries. Regardless of whether its special, or platonic.
Well....I just hope that these days, as i'm ending my college life. I just hope and pray. That He'll lead me on the right path. I fret thinking about the future. Every time i think about it, a shiver goes down my spine. Nobody wants a bad future, at least not for me. The world is coming to an end....Appreciate what we have....well....hope things, will turn out good, not only in these 7 months, but also in the months, and now years to come.....
Guess....this'll be it.
Where am i heading? Which direction am i going? Is the path right? Or is it wrong? Once again i stumble upon this crossroads....i dono whether its a split road, a T-junction, or a crossroad. To be frank, this sucks. I dono why in the world i took up engineering....Did i pursue the wrong thing? I would prefer business and arts now....Its not a matter of earning money or what....but somehow i'm already bored with engineering. I'm kinda drained of all my energy....
Everybody wants life to be perfect, simple, and fun. A life without work and fun without boundaries. Everybody loves to enjoy the sea breeze, or to relax in the countryside or reside at the hilltop...Who doesn't? I always want to do that. To enjoy the last remnants of my life, enjoying. Instead of being bothered by the boredom and the "responsibilities" of life. Yea, u can call me irresponsible. But i only direct my "irresponsibility", or shud i say negligence, towards certain issues. That's all.
Haiz...i still have another 7months ahead. What will these 7 months determine? I am determined to end it well, but as the saying goes, the spirit is strong, but the flesh is weak....How am i supposed to do it? I'm talking about results here. To me, results isn't all that matters. But i dono the world,...Parents keep nagging saying results is NEAR everything. I don't know.....But somehow i feel, being able to deal with a person and communicate with a person is more than matters. In other words, relationship between people. And these kind of relationships can surpass all boundaries. Regardless of whether its special, or platonic.
Well....I just hope that these days, as i'm ending my college life. I just hope and pray. That He'll lead me on the right path. I fret thinking about the future. Every time i think about it, a shiver goes down my spine. Nobody wants a bad future, at least not for me. The world is coming to an end....Appreciate what we have....well....hope things, will turn out good, not only in these 7 months, but also in the months, and now years to come.....
Guess....this'll be it.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Unexpecting the unexpected.
Heh heh~ Lol.....So, here i am, again. Lol....Well, today's post will be about the unexpected stuff that happens at times. hahahaha....
Scene 1 :
We (my frenz and me) go 1u, for eat, movie, and walk-walk. Den hor, we saw HP got promotion. U know what is HP? there....the computer brand arh. Duno call wat oso....wat wat Hewlard Paclett arh? lolx....watever u call it la. Anyway, we go there, check out those comps. Not bad lappys and desktopys. Den, the salesgirl, or the promoter call us go check out the competition behind. So, we go lo. The competition is about "guessing" the rough price of a room. Yes, a room. They kinda made a "living room" in the middle of 1u. So, we guessed lo. I guessed about rm25,014. Dun ask me why 14....lols.
After that hor, we get vouchers. vouchers worth, RM1125!!!!! GOSH!!!! that's....not little. I just used up a voucher worth RM500. I not happy, i take friend's one, use again. Means total RM1000. Lols....We had pizza, Big-Apple Donuts, newspapers, Yoga, facial treatment, fish spa, discounts and other rebates. Pretty great deal eh? Despite me being reluctant to spend much money as i'm saving for something REAL BIG for now. XD
Scene 2:
We were in class, and HOLA!!! News had spread that there was a new cyber somewhere nearby. And, a typical newly opened cyber shop will have his/her/their shop to be free for about a week or so. So......heh heh. We all had a "de-tour" there....after class that is. The comps seem pretty good. Added along with its blastable speakers. Another money-saving event if u ask me. hahahaha....
Scene 3:
This happened on 30/10. We wanted to go to that cyber again but somehow or rather, we had to pay already. So we no go lo. Instead, we hanged around at one of our friends place. And played PS2 there. HAhahahahahahaha.....Then, CNN (college news network) sent an SMS that says something like "1st 3-people to reply, will win some stuff". So i was like....wan anot le? Somemore i playing game halfway. Lol....Den i dun bother, i just sent a reply like about 3mins later.
And................
HOLA!!!!! I won. Lol.....weird. Despite being 3-mins in lagging position, i still managed to win. Lol....Oh yea, forgot say what i won. lol....i won 2 tickets to Scream Park in SunwayLagoon there....But le.....i was thinking, GO WITH HU?! lol.....2tickets to Scream Park seems to be a little getaway for couples. Lolz! But le.....she's kinda busy with her studies. adui~~~~~~~~
"selamat tinggal coupon-ku".....lolz....in the end, i went to Halloween Party, at HELP college, with 8 guys. T_T
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Lol.....that's all then. Hahahahahahhaha.....Now is 7.50am on 1/11/08. i'm gonna go OUT!!!! and do my preparations for.....my langkawi trip. Hope it brings fruit!!!! Oh watever, not like anybody's gonna understand this lol~
Chao chao bloggie~ Master's ain't gonna miss u for a few days. Lol~
Ciaoz~
Scene 1 :
We (my frenz and me) go 1u, for eat, movie, and walk-walk. Den hor, we saw HP got promotion. U know what is HP? there....the computer brand arh. Duno call wat oso....wat wat Hewlard Paclett arh? lolx....watever u call it la. Anyway, we go there, check out those comps. Not bad lappys and desktopys. Den, the salesgirl, or the promoter call us go check out the competition behind. So, we go lo. The competition is about "guessing" the rough price of a room. Yes, a room. They kinda made a "living room" in the middle of 1u. So, we guessed lo. I guessed about rm25,014. Dun ask me why 14....lols.
After that hor, we get vouchers. vouchers worth, RM1125!!!!! GOSH!!!! that's....not little. I just used up a voucher worth RM500. I not happy, i take friend's one, use again. Means total RM1000. Lols....We had pizza, Big-Apple Donuts, newspapers, Yoga, facial treatment, fish spa, discounts and other rebates. Pretty great deal eh? Despite me being reluctant to spend much money as i'm saving for something REAL BIG for now. XD
Scene 2:
We were in class, and HOLA!!! News had spread that there was a new cyber somewhere nearby. And, a typical newly opened cyber shop will have his/her/their shop to be free for about a week or so. So......heh heh. We all had a "de-tour" there....after class that is. The comps seem pretty good. Added along with its blastable speakers. Another money-saving event if u ask me. hahahaha....
Scene 3:
This happened on 30/10. We wanted to go to that cyber again but somehow or rather, we had to pay already. So we no go lo. Instead, we hanged around at one of our friends place. And played PS2 there. HAhahahahahahaha.....Then, CNN (college news network) sent an SMS that says something like "1st 3-people to reply, will win some stuff". So i was like....wan anot le? Somemore i playing game halfway. Lol....Den i dun bother, i just sent a reply like about 3mins later.
And................
HOLA!!!!! I won. Lol.....weird. Despite being 3-mins in lagging position, i still managed to win. Lol....Oh yea, forgot say what i won. lol....i won 2 tickets to Scream Park in SunwayLagoon there....But le.....i was thinking, GO WITH HU?! lol.....2tickets to Scream Park seems to be a little getaway for couples. Lolz! But le.....she's kinda busy with her studies. adui~~~~~~~~
"selamat tinggal coupon-ku".....lolz....in the end, i went to Halloween Party, at HELP college, with 8 guys. T_T
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Lol.....that's all then. Hahahahahahhaha.....Now is 7.50am on 1/11/08. i'm gonna go OUT!!!! and do my preparations for.....my langkawi trip. Hope it brings fruit!!!! Oh watever, not like anybody's gonna understand this lol~
Chao chao bloggie~ Master's ain't gonna miss u for a few days. Lol~
Ciaoz~
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