Cause a journey of life, the track I run,
Lots to do, time is of little sum,
My dreams to hit, with my beloved one.
Yes, I'm actually 23. Twenty-three-years-old.....
Thats roughly living on this world, breathing, for about approximately 725,328,000 seconds.....
And that's alot..
I dont know. Say that I'm thinking too much of say that my dreams are too big.
Tell me that I'm building castles in the air, and that i'm much of a money-minded person.
But deep inside, i believe the real reason counts....
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| Koh Samui 2012 - Nova Samui Resort |
We may be but distances apart, we may even be but mindsets apart. But as the heart beats, it'll beat as one. Honestly I never thought I would come to love ever again..... I really never thought about it, yet, as though as it was God's divine plan, love knocked at my door once more.....
Before, it was love which got me crazy. It was love which got me to rebel......
Yet once more, love once more... Nullified my acidity, brought me back to neutrality......
A girl which I never thought I would ever be with, in my wildest of wildest dreams..... The girl which I had one of the greatest crush during secondary school, would actually end up being with me, in my arms.
Well, I guess I've intro-ed my love to my blog, its time to talk about, dreams.
Yes, dreams..... My dreams, they are simple, yet they are complex. A dream which is easily grasped, yet hard to obtain. A dream for my loved ones, yet also a dream for my personal self.....
I believe it is all men's wants and needs to want to have a life of serenity. As for me, I want a life of peace, of serenity, of tranquility. I hate the busy life of the world. I hate the tiredness of working like a mad dog. I hate being pressured by people so that I can do my job so that THEIR company gets all the income..... Now we all know why I dont really fancy an indoor job but stick to sales?
Anyway, back to the point.....
Im thinking alot lately.... A hell lot.... Thinking thoughts which a 23-yr-old guy would not usually think. Now, im not saying that i'm the unique 23-yr old, but then, how many of my age with such mindsets? Nay, not many....
You all wonder why I commit so much.... Why I work so much, why I work so hard, why i take up so many 'bags'? Now lets see....
I have Coppertech, tuitions, HLA, and a soon-to-be-inforced business with my partner.....
Its simple. I can survive just nicely with just my Sales job from Coppertech. Like hell seriously, the pay is almost RM 3,000 a month, why cant i survive well?
No..... I wanna go further, I wanna dream bigger, I wanna push as hard as I can....
I wanna break my limits.....
My girl's gonna finish her dentistry studies in roughly 08 months time.... And I pray pray pray pray pray that she'll be relocated back to KL..... I guess in 8 months time, I would have enough of my parting in LDRs, that would be the limit i suppose...... But i must always, be prepared for the worst~
In 08 months time, would I be financially stable? Would I be mentally fit to take care of her? Would I be emotionally strong to be her pillar of hope, of joy, of love? Lastly, would I be fit, to take care of her the rest of my life?? Yeah, call me an idiot for rushing things..... But heck no.... I want to plan for my future, I want to live life that I'll never regret. I dont want to live a life which i have to work 8am-9pm every fucking day.... I wanna live a life that I'm able to see my girl from dawn till sunset.... And not worry about finance!
Every second of the clock is ticking.... Even as I type my thoughts into this blog, time counts, each second counts.... I need to buy a house before she graduates, buy a car before she graduates.... She deserves my best, for if not, who else does?
Honestly, I dont really feel 23 at all..... A 23 yo guy usually wouldnt wanna commit into a relationship early, neither does he plan for his another 23yrs ahead of him..... Mock me in any way possible, but only results will justify actions. And actions justify thoughts....
Probably I'm just too stressed right now, that I need to tell someone without knowing who the someone is.... Lol~ Complicated i know~
Anyway, the best part about it?? My girl doesnt know about my blog's existence, neither does she know about my diary. Lol~
I just wonder....Would I be able to live up to my dreams???
A girl which I never thought I would ever be with, in my wildest of wildest dreams..... The girl which I had one of the greatest crush during secondary school, would actually end up being with me, in my arms.
Well, I guess I've intro-ed my love to my blog, its time to talk about, dreams.
Yes, dreams..... My dreams, they are simple, yet they are complex. A dream which is easily grasped, yet hard to obtain. A dream for my loved ones, yet also a dream for my personal self.....
I believe it is all men's wants and needs to want to have a life of serenity. As for me, I want a life of peace, of serenity, of tranquility. I hate the busy life of the world. I hate the tiredness of working like a mad dog. I hate being pressured by people so that I can do my job so that THEIR company gets all the income..... Now we all know why I dont really fancy an indoor job but stick to sales?
Anyway, back to the point.....
Im thinking alot lately.... A hell lot.... Thinking thoughts which a 23-yr-old guy would not usually think. Now, im not saying that i'm the unique 23-yr old, but then, how many of my age with such mindsets? Nay, not many....
You all wonder why I commit so much.... Why I work so much, why I work so hard, why i take up so many 'bags'? Now lets see....
I have Coppertech, tuitions, HLA, and a soon-to-be-inforced business with my partner.....
Its simple. I can survive just nicely with just my Sales job from Coppertech. Like hell seriously, the pay is almost RM 3,000 a month, why cant i survive well?
No..... I wanna go further, I wanna dream bigger, I wanna push as hard as I can....
I wanna break my limits.....
My girl's gonna finish her dentistry studies in roughly 08 months time.... And I pray pray pray pray pray that she'll be relocated back to KL..... I guess in 8 months time, I would have enough of my parting in LDRs, that would be the limit i suppose...... But i must always, be prepared for the worst~
In 08 months time, would I be financially stable? Would I be mentally fit to take care of her? Would I be emotionally strong to be her pillar of hope, of joy, of love? Lastly, would I be fit, to take care of her the rest of my life?? Yeah, call me an idiot for rushing things..... But heck no.... I want to plan for my future, I want to live life that I'll never regret. I dont want to live a life which i have to work 8am-9pm every fucking day.... I wanna live a life that I'm able to see my girl from dawn till sunset.... And not worry about finance!
Every second of the clock is ticking.... Even as I type my thoughts into this blog, time counts, each second counts.... I need to buy a house before she graduates, buy a car before she graduates.... She deserves my best, for if not, who else does?
Honestly, I dont really feel 23 at all..... A 23 yo guy usually wouldnt wanna commit into a relationship early, neither does he plan for his another 23yrs ahead of him..... Mock me in any way possible, but only results will justify actions. And actions justify thoughts....
Probably I'm just too stressed right now, that I need to tell someone without knowing who the someone is.... Lol~ Complicated i know~
Anyway, the best part about it?? My girl doesnt know about my blog's existence, neither does she know about my diary. Lol~
I just wonder....Would I be able to live up to my dreams???
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