Weird Emotions.

Hmmm...Its pretty weird these days. Now i got 4months break, i ought to be happy! But weird. I dun feel happy. I feel sad. Its so lonely being at home. So boring, nothing to do....All i do is Eat, Sleep, Pee, Shit, Play. And nothing more. I miss my friends, i miss my college. Though i hate to study, but yea....i've to admit i miss college. Its just the 2nd week of my hols. WTH. crap....how to endure another...14weeks? T_T TORTURE....

Anyway, today, was weird. I woke up due to several 'reasons' which i won't tell LOL. Dono la...weird la....The atmosphere oso so.....so tempting for me to go for a swim. But nobody la...YER GERAM LAR!!!! WHY I HOLIDAY WHEN EVERYBODY GOT NO HOLIDAY....RAWR!!!! SO SIAN!!! Grrr....I'm just bored bored bored bored bored bored bored!!!! SOMEONE HELP ME!!!! lol...Anybody part time job? That of course...pays well too. xD

Corrupted Food, Unsatisfaction and a Joke.

Hahahaha....Food. Everybody eat food de hor. The only difference is that whether u're satisfied with that food or not. And also, here is to show what happens, if you play with your food. XD


----> At McD

( McD IceCream, Dipped with Chili Sauce. Yummy... xD )

This was went me and my frens went to McD to study. The 'smart' counter fella was cramming everything into my tray. Smart seh. And when i went up the stairs, it toppled. Hahaha...In the end, the icecream ended up being our 'toy' for like 30mins? Lolx.


-----> At BlackCanyon restaurant

Man, i just 'love' this restaurant. This place hor, at Centerpoint hor, IF u have NO PATIENCE, i suggest u not to go. Basket seh. I ordered "Wa Tan Hor" and u wanna see the portion they give me? SO "BIG" MAN....Check it.


( The Red Circle is the portion i got )

Of course, i sure angry la. RM 10 seh. For that? Joker....Go complain lor. Complain to WAITER A, he blur blur, dun understand English. Bengang aku. Call WAITER B, also dun understand English. Wat the hell....Starting to fume dy. Angry lor, call Manager come. MANAGER ALSO DUN UNDERSTAND ENGLISH!!!! ROAR!!!! i think, my little 7yr old sister understand more English. XD

I shoot shoot shoot....then dey gimme new portion. xD
My friend infront me shake head hahahaha....And Gosh, i really prayed for the sanctification of the FOOD....HAHAHAHAHAHA....


( The Portion after complaining. XD VICTORY~~~~~!!! lolx )

A little Conversation post.....

Me : Hey waiter, RM10, like that only?
Waiter A : Yes sir, lidat oni.
Me : U eat can full meh?
Waiter A : Har?
Me : I ask u, u eat like this, can full ah?
Waiter A : Kenot.
Me : Yalor, where can full. So little. Can add more ah?
Waiter A : Wait i call people....
Me : Ok.
Waiter B : Sir anything sir?
Me : RM10, like that only?
Waiter B : Yes sir, lidat oni.
Me : U eat can full meh?
Waiter B : Kenot sir.
Me : YALOR. CANNOT FULL. SO EXPENSIVE. U OK? (bengang dy.)
Waiter B : Yes sir but is lidat oni.
Me : CALL UR MANAGER Here.
Waiter B : Err...ok sir.
~~~~The manager is lady. Waiter A and Waiter B are guys.
Manager : Sir anything?
Me : This food, like that only? RM 10? Like that only? I come last time bigger leh.
Manager : Yes sir lidat oni.
Me : I ask u, u eat this, CAN FULL AH?
Manager : Yes sir, I eat, can full.
Me : ...........................
Manager : Nvm sir, i go giv u more sir.
Me : Haiz. Ok. Tks.

I so damn zhatou with that manager....ZZzzzZZzz.....

Expectations?

Well, today CG we just talked about Love. Last week was? ....er...dating if i nt mistaken. Well, as usual, we had each a turn to share what was LOVE in our hearts. As in our opinion on what love is all about.

Well, so far we categorized love into about 3 parts. They are "Friends Love", "Parental Love", and "Godly Love". Well since everybody had their own set of answers, i'll probably just list down the few that really....made me think quite alot. hahahaha....

What is love? To me, when i was younger, love was like....a taboo? its like when a guy gets close to a girl den people will start saying, "Woooo U love that girl...", those type of childish stuff and all which i believe we all go thru it. Love when i was younger....was like....i 'owned' somebody. as in she/he 'belongs' to me. Get my idea? Lolz....and then you can go and showoff and all; that u 'own' someone. Hahahaha pretty childish thoughts eh?

Well, as i grow, i tend to realize that love is more about sacrifice, time, care, and the ability to see people's strengths pass their weakness. As in see their good rather than their flaws. In relationships, now, i believe, when 2 people are into a relationship, i believe the most important thing is the ability to sacrifice and spend time together no matter what the consequences is. Well, at least that is what i expect now if i ever have a girl. U don't want the girl you be with always busy, always not around and all. The only time u get to talk to him or her is via sms. This is like..."Hey i'm getting into a relationship with my handphone???" Lolz....

Well parental love and godly love is more....hmmm...more meaningful i would say. Parents are always there to give u care, love, trust, hope, and they fulfill ur daily needs....NEEDS, not wants. Godly love is...is John 3:16. Read urself. hahahha....Or 1 Corinthians 13.

Well, in general, the word 'love' itself is too big to comprehend. Just cut it off to the small and more common pieces, and leave the rest to itself....
Why is love so complicated anyway? Lolz.

E.T.D.D.F

E.T.D.D.F? Exams, Trials, Dilemmas, Distraction, Frustration.

Haiz....exam exam exam, next tuesday exam and yet what am i doing? i can't study...i can't concentrate. I'm trying but yet my mind seems to wander. Why? why do i always feel tired? geees...seriously this is one of the worst times of my life....Ever cried before juz coz of the stress of an exam? Well, honestly speaking, this is the 1st time i ever cried for an exam. What a crybaby eh? T_T sad case for me....

Dilemmas dilemmas dilemmas. Everyday oso choose choose choose. Either this, or that. Why muz choose? So many things to do, so many problems to solve, so many things to accomplish. I'm having the worst nightmare of my life. Guess what? These problems are driving me crazy....I once dreamt....Recently lar....S.A.T.A.N came to me in my dream....he tried to scare me, tried to freak me out, tried to weaken me....I was paralyzed. Its a dream but it all seem too real....Its just too real...

These things are draining all my energy, all my liveliness. i dono lar i juz hope this ends quick....i dowanna choose anything if its possible but yet i know its not. God please help...i'm starting to have weird nightmares and all and i can't slp always. I dono why but to me the only way for me to release these stresses of mine is via my stupid blog. A blog which i try many times to type and update but it always fail i don't know why.

So frustrated as well...college life...people say honeymoon life hor? MY FOOT LAR! honeymoon KONON. BABI LA ISH i SUPER ANGRY WITH COLLEGE LIFE! gargh! assignments assignments assignments, exam exam exam, class class class....i don't even have time to live a life man! GARGH! i just feel like ramming into the wall....damn. another year...to go? can i stand it? can i pass thru it? can i withstand the tremendous stress? can i?

Well.....all i can do is hope....Just hope things pass by fast. T_T
i'm beginning to have a serious critical breakdown.....can't stand it no more.... T_T
every night i cry before i sleep....

P.S : yeah i know...crybaby again...haiz.

Assignment Rush-Hour!

Lol....U know hor...since i tink 1-1.5months ago i had like nearly lets say +-10assignments. Crap man its WOOOT so much!! hahaha....hmmm, the time taken to do it is lets say nearly 1month lar...for us to do. Then i was like.."haiya, 1month more. tmr lar..." and it continues....Hahahaha i'm a super PRocRastinAt0R maN.....Lol....

And guess what's the consequences?! I supposedly have to passup 3 assignments last friday. Luckily one lecturer was abit lenient, tho the fact is actually due to his mis-teachings...as in he ask us do assignment but no teach how do. Sweat. Then hor, tat day wednesday. Crap lo. I still have wednesday night and thursday to do. Then wednesday got CE class at church. T_T

So wednesday no do at all...Crap. Thursday i start assignment lor. Actually i did start earlier, but 1 assignment i did 50% but is not to passup on friday. Another assignment which is due on friday i do wrong dy. So total done = 0%. LOL.

Then thursday about 5pm start work. Whoa i tell you. Hectic like siao! I dun even remember did i had dinner also anot. Lol. Just keep doing and doing and doing. Hahahaha....Din even know its like ''Cuckoo-cuckoo!!!" What it means?! ITS MORNING!!!! oh my gosh....Lol.

And guess what? I finished 1 assignment at 7am. Hahaha!!! Left another. Shit man....8hours for 1 assignment that is supposedly to be done in 1month?! 8hours:1month ratio is MAD....Luckily, i have good friends, who supports me. You guys know who you are. =D

They helped me lor...And thankfully, hahaha....i finished my work at 4.15pm. And the assignment is due to be handed in before 5pm. Phew. Man i'm soooo freaking tired. Gosh...

Moral of story?
--> Don't procrastinate nia. Cause u'll never do it. Hahahaha....

Love?

Well....i'll just share a little here. about what i feel about life yea? It was this little time in the night when my mind just came to a halt and started thinking about stuffs. What is Love? somehow we all tend to know the answer about love and all....Love is kind, patient, not rude, doesn't boast, doesn't want what that belongs to others, blablabla....

But when you're in love, or when you're out of love, its a whole different thing all together. dun u tink so? There's a difference between the phrases of "madly in love", "in love" and "out of love".

When you're so madly in love, u tend to go "ga-ga" over that gurl/guy u're so much into and nothing else matters except them. This is so the wrong. ReAlly childish love if you're mature enough to see it properly. And if ever your partner ever dumps you, your whole world comes crashing down. You go through emotional breakdown, physical sickness, spiritual warfare and all those crappy stuff. So whoever that wanna get in love, don't be so "ga-ga" over it. It sucks. And it doesn't last. My friend of mine gave me this little story which is really meaningful....(in a way)

---> Love = Chewing Gum. Why?
This is cause when u start loving, starting a NEW relationship, everything seems SUPER SWEET, SUPER COOL, SUPER FUN, SUPER NICE. Its like gum. When its new, its sweet, fun, delicious, tasty. However, after awhile, the gum loses its flavour, loses its aroma, loses its texture, loses its taste. And slowly, slowly, u tend to spit it out. And there goes the relationship. Pretty puppy lovie type eh?

Now the best part.....
"real love". As said earlier, love is patient, kind, doesn't boast and blablabla.....But is love just that? 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 says : "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

This is love. But there's more! FOR ME, i believe, love is far more than this. Yes this is love based on the Scripture. However, i believe love not only lies upon those facts but also on other facts. Love on the other hand, is also known as SACRIFICE....
Love = Sacrifice. No two lovers can be together for long if there is no mutual sacrifice between each other. Probably there could be, but its one in a million.

Love is also Understanding, Commitment and Loyalty. Lovers should be understanding, committed and also loyal. Why are there arguments amongst lovers? Not only for the young but the old alike. Usually arguments sparks because that there is no mutual understanding between them, thus, resulting in argument. Its important to know your guy/girl well before entering a relationship with them, you know.

finally as the ULTIMATUM!!!


LOVE = TIME!!!

As the ultimatum, Love = Time. Without time, there can't be love. For instance, how're you gonna get to "tackle" that girl without spending time? Impossible right?
Another example, as a Christian, how can you ever love God without spending time with Him? Its like being a baby in Christ, how can a baby in Christ a.k.a a new-believer, says that he is TOTALLY and MADLY in love with our Father? He believes in Him, yes, but love, takes time to build.
So as application to life, no matter what, lovers ought to spend time together. It doesnt mean that lovers ought to go to fancy-fancy places for their date or what-so-ever. Even a stroll down the park would be GREAT! This is coz what matters most is the TIME. Time is precious, more precious than gold/silver/anything else in the world. That's why, with time, love grows.

Fine, i admit, i've had had experiences. And my mind keeps thinking about this word, LOVE. somehow i don't know why, but LOVE, makes a HUGE impact on me. prob it goes to the same as others as well, but well, who knows?

Anyway, how about falling "out of love"??? This means the "feeling" that was once there is gone? or is subsiding? I don't really know but i know many people who have fallen out of love. Why? Its usually because the lack of those above. E.g : Lack of understanding, Uncommitted, Unloyal, and most importantly, Time that was spent, is either of no quality, or no quantity at all. Now now, we don't wanna fall "out of love" do we?

Well, i'm open to all opinions on this view of mine. You may congratulate me or you may despise me. i'm open to criticisms. =D

P.S = who doesn't wanna be loved? neither does one want to be unloved.

No Apologies? Seminarrr.....

Geez....The seminar last week was....T_T which means, sad to say...boring. Its good for youngsters like lets say....12 to 17? geez i know so many many many things about the 'sex' tat dey talk about and the STDs and those stuff. weird eh? sometimes i wonder why i know dem all lolz.....but practically it was boring. the only part that was nice was the fellowship. =D tat's all i can say. lolz.

hmmm anyone else that went to the seminar and found it boring? come come share with me...we keep it PnC hahahaha...!!

finally update blog ABIT....1mth 1week no update. i lazy lar.... T_T