There-Di-Cation to SC. (Someone Close)

Tell me why we got so close,
That we made it, from hands to nose,
The amount of seeds, together we sow,
Hard to ignore, the flowers that grow.

Life once, but so dull and bland,
After four years, again we both stand.
Parties together, aint want it to end,
I'll take good care of you, even if it costs me my hand.

Feelings fade, and feelings grow.
Then again, to me you rarely show.
I'm still in the dark about our row,
But the least I hope, is another fatal blow.

Today, You seemed angry at me,
Then, the problem I cannot see.
Could it be I cared too much?
Or cause I met another girl and kept in touch.

Leaving the past for total good,
Living life, the way I should.
Hopefully a day, a get-together we could,
And a dance with you, I willingly would.

Before, limitation was my only bound,
Now, total freedom I have found.
Everyday, my world you make go round,
Lets dance, till the music runs out of sound!

My first post about you is today,
Hopefully cool down that soon you may,
Lets get out again these coming day(s),
Finance aint an issue, cause I can pay!

I still wonder, if there's mutuality,
Or in you, there's still absencesity,
I'll try to win you with sincerity,
And give thee the most, of security.

Even if people label you as a calamity,
I know deep inside, you're an on-Earth-deity,
Screw it! Lets just continue to party,
And thanks for being, my new best buddy!!

IT IS FINISHED!!!!!

Today,

Is the day I've grown.

Today,

Is the day I've lived to show.

Today,

A wish I made so long ago.

A wish which came true, and now forgone.

This very day,

A new wish I made,

A new wish I will create.

A new wish I will live out.

The old hath gone,

The new hath cometh.

All in all, a new being I see-eth.

The days of dwelling shall NO LONGER remain,

The days of crying shall NO LONGER contain,

The days of sadness, NO LONGER again,

It is time, to fully move on.

True enough, a new being i'm seeing,

True enough, a new joy i'm enjoying.

I see myself.

I see freedom, in being me.

I see joy, in being myself.

I see fun, in being I.

22yrs I have becometh.

And never a birthday happier, have i enjoyeth.

Even my 21st birthday was not desired,

But today, you all make my day forever remembered.

Whatever will be, will be.

As for now.... Let things just be.

Another year has passeth,
Another year has cometh.
New friends and buddies we may be,
But it felt I knew u guys for eternity.
Thx pals, thx mom&dad =)

TODAY SHOULD NOT EXIST!

Today was supposed to be a day of celebration,
But what's left is just reconciliation,
This heart of mine now in total rebellion,
But i still ask and pray for our unification.

Celebrate together we thought initially,
But now you are no longer my ally,
My heart longs for you so badly,
Crying out loud, daily and nightly.
And i know, this pain will always remain tightly,
I just wish, I'd die swiftly.

DAMN!!!! WHY?!?!?!?!? ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz......

I'm gonna go.... get myself knocked out. Stupid day.

-= Ipoh + Cameron =-

So yeah,

I went to Ipoh for the very first time.... Fulfilling my 'dreams' of going for random holidays.... =)

So far....

Cameron - April

Genting - May

Ipoh+Cameron - June

????? - July

I wonder what's instore for July.... Hmm.... So far plans are going to Ko Samui? Or probably Redang/Langkawi.... Hehehehe.....

So yeah, went to Ipoh, but i missed out on quite a few fun stuff =(

Major mistake :

i) Missed on Gua Tempurung

ii) Missed on Tambun Lost World

iii) Missed on Sungai Klah Hot Springs =(

Hopefully one day, Imma be able to visit them..... =) if can i'll bring a 'loved' one go together LOL..... but i reckon i'll be pretty 'alone' for the time being. oh well~

Anyway enough of random talks, just a few picas for updates....

Hehehe... Mixed-fruit aka MANGO+Jackfruit ABC!!!

Indulging in Ipoh's Nga Choy Kai ^^

Pancake @ DimSum =)

Siu-Long-Pau!!!! My all-time-favourite! XD

*Your's Truly*~ Lengzai neh~ ^_^

Cameron's Strawberry Crepe~ oo lalala~

*Tranquility*

The Green-Pastures~

Forgive me, i know imma cute. LOL!

Lastly, my dreams came true with this pic. =)

Always wanted a pic like this.

Probably next time i'll get a better pic. XD

Hahahahahhaa........

Jar, of Hearts.

I know I can't take one more step towards you

Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

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Not bad, I've finally mastered the song.... =) And now...
I have to fully learn, to fully let you go.

Its been awhile, its been enough.

The memories, the love,

The haunting and the reminiscing.....

I lost the love i loved the most....

Letting it all go...

Leaving it behind....

Till the day you find that i was worth in your eyes.

So long.....

My one, my only love.

Time to pull myself up!!!!

Memories......
Let it fade, with time.....

Who Do You Think You Are????!?!!!!!

As the title says above, the title says it all.

Who do you think you are?

Like seriously.

The new me,

The new to be.

Changes of abruptness,

Changes of definition,

Changes of bypass,

Changes of celebration.

Understanding the things that I have never understood,

Enjoying the things that I thought I never had the chance,

Enjoying the times I'm having with friends, and new friends,

Enjoying, myself.

Again,

Who do you think you are?

Sometimes I ask myself,

Have I, yet to fully understand love?
Love,
A gift yet a curse,
A joy yet a pain.
Love?

Flyday-Sathurdey-Sonday

Friday (27/5)

Today wasn't a very nice day to start of with..... A day full of worries, anxieties, problems, and i cant get that thought out of my head.... Then again, the worst thing to deal with was my job and my commitments..... Despite all those, 'alarming-bells' were still ringing in my head though i tried so hard to shut them off.

This day, i couldn't stop thinking.... I just cannot.

My previous post on 27/5 also same thing. Think think think..... Goodness. Got so stuffed up with work, only slept at 6am to wake up abt 645am the next morning. Great, 45mins of rest, a day. =="

Saturday (28/5)

Somehow, God is gracious still..... He led me through the 'darkest valley', and after that he brought me out to his 'astounding-light'. Saturday was the full opposite of flyday..... Really.

A day of fun, satisfaction, laughter, and a day of joy. What else to

ask for? A day without worries nor fear, a day without qualms.

Today, a very good friend bought me my first.... well, my first quality-plastic-water-bottle.....

no "jelly" no flame no trolls plz... ^^

i love green monster.... XD

Yeah, so where was I? Hmmmm...... So we went to celebrate DQuah's birthday at.... at Sakae @ The Curve. So, Mr.Quah, happy ma this year you get all your "wishes" to come true. Including the "surprise" at your house on 12am? Hahahahaha...... At the very least of my gratefulness, i'm grateful that you're happy. And thx for being a friend. Like heck, seriously. ^^

Settled with Sakae with the bill amounting to RM75++, i think p

retty decent larh, DQ had to shoot back home coz tmr he serving in main, but since i'm free, hmmm..... i brought my friend go to KL! Lols.... Go to BBPark. Lmao.... I haven't roamed the KL streets at night, and hola! My wish came true.... LOL~~

Ahhh, the place to chill out, but 1am not so bright lar~ =)

So there we go, but KL prices are "blardy" insane.... 2 drinks ~ RM32+5%tax = RM33.60. Madness tak terhingga. Lol. At the same time, we saw some "Ah-Guas" at the street-side, waiting and aiming for "perfect-candidates".... ROFL! My goodness, i see dao them, they send shivers down my spine..... geli dao.... ><"

So as promised, sent my friend back at 3am, to wake up at 9am the next day for church. Lol....

Sunday (29/5)

Okay, so everybody else was at camp....... Ishhh......

Brought my friend to 2nd serv, met back with a few "old" friends, and the 3 of us went to Mont Kiara....

JOKER!!!! Wanted to go to "Sister's Kitchen" at MK, but.... dont know why the shop no more there. I think close jor.... so sad lerr.... went all the way there, and ended up? Eating Pizza.... =="

Pizzaaa.... or was it Pit-Zaa?

Grrr.... Eat dao so full. Anyway, had a wonderful time. But DQ, why you "pening" larh? Next time sleep earlier. ^_^ wakakaka....

All in all, wonderful weekend, at least for me. =))

Cheers buddies~

Love the 3 of you. =)

You know who you are. ^^